I still attract allot of women!
How do you know you attract women! As soon as a hot girl ( women) shows, up, she's picked you as the main man to stare at! She's not looking at anyone else; but 50 other beaming male headlights are staring at her vying for her attention! Not me! I don't have to! I ignore her! Im confident, Im sexy, everybody wants me; thats how I see it because thats the way its been! Of course; its not everybody! But its been the majority most of my life!
IVe never done anything about women being attracted to me! And Ive always felt bad about this! Ive been one of these guys that women like! I MEAN; LIKE! Their attracted to me! And they are still attracted to me! And they are 30 years younger then me; and they don't ######6 care! And their still picking me over everyone else! Not all of them! But allot of them!
Would I sleep with them; all of them! Do I? None of them! Why? Lack of " close up" confidence!
The last women that caught me off guard and got close to me! She freaked when she saw my fear! I had no confidence! She never got near me again! And when she saw me; she was scared of me! My attitude was ###$ off! Who cares! You can be replaced!
If you cant get close up to women; your out! And it seems; IVe had allot of women try to get close up to me! But they are disappointed! I have fear written all over me! And then they loose interest and their gone!
Sleeping with women; I have no experience! I have only experiences watching porn! Its all very shameful! " Not the porn"! The part of having no experience with women!
Women can be shallow! And I don't want to attract shallow women because I cant work with them!
It seems I need a sex therapist to get me up on top of things! hahahahahha!
I need to bed about 10000 women to gain experience! Women are interested; but I don't hit back!
One major problem has been; where do I meet women! I need a place I feel comfortable meeting women! Its up to me to find this place!
Its up to me to learn jokes and make women laugh!
Its up to me to come out of my shell!
Just talking to women and feeling safe! I don't trust women because I don't want anything from them; Im not interested in having a girlfriend with most of them; I just want to sleep with them!
The problem is; first, I have to be able to talk to them and relax and make them laugh! My clothing has to be washed, my apartment clean!
I just want a physical pleasure thing with them!
Ive had 1 million missed opportunities with everyone! Every type of women and age and beauty level! Its crazy! Most guys would die to be in my situation with women! But Ive never cared! I just wanted that one nice girl! Thats all I ever wanted! Just my soulmate and nothing more!
Im working on the soulmate thing! She will be asian; and this has got me interested in who she is or where I will meet her! I say this because I don't know to many girls with an asian background!
I have to loose my shyness! I have to!
So, in reality, Im as far with women as any shy guy! Im having to step out like any other guy that is scared! And Im scared to death! Im very afraid my life wont be much to someone that is expecting more!
Most women I don't click with; not like a soulmate! So; the only thing left is sex!
Its all hard work! I don't know what Im afraid of; looking like a fool! I don't know!
The first step is saying hi! And learning how to just do things together to hang out! Why Im so scared of this; I don't know; but Im frightened and scared to death!@ terror seizes me! It's ######6 horrible! Its like Im going to be around a child molester or something! Its possible, I associate women with child molestation or molesters! Because something is wrong! I have no power around women! Im not talking directly with them! I avoid them! One main problem is; Ive spend years developing and attitude to stay away from them and never developed a routine to get near to them and have success!