Social acceptability; this is the next big move Im working on! What does social acceptability mean! How am I impacted by social acceptability! Whats it like being disabled in the social ability realm!
I mention social acceptability, not just relational dysfunctional help or healing! Im finding a big difference between relationship and social interaction in general! "A social interaction is an exchange between two or more individuals and is a building block of society. Social interaction can be studied between groups of two (dyads), three (triads) or larger social groups. By interacting with one another, people design rules, institutions and systems within which they seek to live"
I have not been able to design a way of living! I have had no social abilities! Ive not had the ability to interact with anyone up close; dissociative disorder destroyed this! I am working on solutions for this problem! Im getting better! Im still dissociative up close with people! Im learning new methods for change in this area!
One area Im working on is 12 step group sharing! This is constant and necessary; not always fun! Im walking into a random group of people, over n over, and sharing about my personal situation with social and relational problems! I work this several times a day! Slowly over time; its working to heal up the feared blind spots associated people; Im afraid of being attacked to the point, I dissociate! It makes no difference who Im talking with; the condition is triggered by closeness and proximity and the movements forward toward me; someone walking toward me! In addition; how aggressive a person is; this will determine the amount of expression I feel safe to withhold!
Im withholding from the world; I would like to express to the world my opinions and views and feel safe again in my own space! its hard to write about! I start dissociating while Im writing about it!
I have much work to do on self@!