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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Tue Nov 24, 2015 5:17 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | So it begins |
It's beginning! The next phase! Im starting to bring up several things in meetings in real time! 1. I was homeless; and to solve it; I simply bought a tarp and attempted to turn my car into a home! Whats wrong wrong with this picture! its winter time; obviously I have a deeper problem! Im in denial about everything and my life! Im a college graduate with several extra years of college hiding! and this is the best I can make of my life! Ive got ######6 problems! That was 20 years ago! I was homeless for a year! Lately, Ive been bringing it up at meetings! Because the fear is now coming present and Im strong enough to bring this vulnerability out among people! 2. Abandonment by my mother! And this is not small deal! This is the real thing! Meaning, Im given away at age 10; and thats that! I was gotten rid of! 3. Panic and learned terror; Fear of talking in front of people or getting close to people! Relationships! More n more, Im simply bringing these things up publicly in meetings as is! Its closer to the point of sorrow and pain, this are the walls Im protecting! When the walls fall, Im closer to being in the present with others! It hurts a great deal! ITs horror terror! and it brings up terror and pain! If I can be present and bring these things up around others, in safe ways, I can manage to be around people again without having my head taken off! or being destroyed for communicating my beliefs! Its a new step forward; it makes it that I have to deal with my past at a deeper level; and it forces me into the present to live once more! This is going to be a ######6 rocking ride! |
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