Technically, Im not alone! But I am! I have no friends! No real friends! I have temporary friends from the meetings! Not a bad thing; it's a good thing! They are my friends, but at a distance! Not close close!
So, as I get better, Im still alone in this town with no one! Its horrible! I walk outside with no social; nothing!
I have the groups and stuff! But no social life! I have no friends!
Im praying for helpers! Those people God sends for help!
However, Im alone! No family! Nothing!
It's a hardship! Im surviving it!
Its strange life!
I know about as many people as I do on this site! I mean! I write blogs! People know something about me; but it's not personal!
Im just starting to open up to people! I must keep praying for help!
I must define what Im looking for; who Im looking for!
Im still going to meetings!
Ive gone to the gym! Ive met a few people; nothing more!
Im not sure what else to do!
I have keep working forward!
I have to get the pain of childhood out of me! It will take some time! I took a major murdering from that situation! And Im scared and nervous of society!
I must work with God and keep going!