I have to do what everyone else does; come back into society and do things; prepare to be someone; make money... Do the things I like to do; learn how.
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As for dating; yes. But Im at the point when dealing with women; My eyes are open; have been since a small child; I know what women are really like; the kind of predators they are and how they look for prey; no different then snakes in a field looking for mice...
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I dont appreciate being prey in my life. I just wanted a friend; what a F&#$#&* joke that is... They are non human in my respect. They look for partners to have children with. I look for girlfriends brought by God to be; well; My Friend... My best friend; sent by God. obviously when comparing these 2 contrasts; One can see the dichotomy.
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Im not totally Red Pill yet; or MGTOW... Im more Purple pill.
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Ive never been treated so horribly by a group of people like I have women; its unbelievable. Its like dealing with animals from a zoo; actually 10 times worse.
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I saw this young women walking down the street.. I watched her for a moment...And I thought. That cant be a friend because that cant have friends... That does not make friends. Friends are not part of its biology. Its almost like a pure fear now that I know what they are...
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I know women love or can love children. I think; I guess; but Ive seen more women destroy children than men. Or equal amounts. I dont know what to think.
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Im not like pure MGTOW's; Im more purple pill then red... Im certainly not some blue pilled simp; or white knight... I know better then that...
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I still believe if Im around half way decent people; I might be treated with respect for who I am... But I dont know. I never have been.
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Im the nicest person I know; Im the most decent person I know. sensitive person; no value to anyone; nothing. Zero.... I'm the last person any women that Ive gotten close to wants to have anything to do with; nothing.
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Heres the deal;
I walked into a field; I noticed the women all acting like predators. they were going after male prey. I could not understand what was going on until I looked by the fence and saw the sign; " female predators here to capture male prey... male prey showing up to be captured".
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God revealed to me; the reason Im meeting bad women is because of the field Im hanging out within. I have to get to better places.
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All I wanted was a best friend... Ill have to work with God on this. of course I want more then just a best friend but thats the bases of it... but ive found no one interested in even being friends with me; nothing... zero...
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Ill have to work with God on this; just as Ill have to work on visualizing money... Money is what makes the world go round and I need it as a value.
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As; what Im suppose to do with my life; I dont know. Im slowly just trying to come back into society.
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The 12 step groups dont help as far as the people all getting close to me; some do. but they help as a general support group. Not everyone wants to see me succeed or cares.
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My goal is to visualize money until its part of my interests in life and I naturally go after it.
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The other part is friendships with women; attracting women that are at my level in a positive sense.
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The fear with women is; Hypergamy....
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It seems like the world has been turned upside down.