Im slowly changing with the goal of getting back to the beginning of social interest; around 6 year old or seven! When I was very young; 2nd grade, I took a girl to the dog show; I assumed I would live a normal life and had a life planned out for myself around decent nice kind family type people'; I am the most decent of people! However, this was destroyed, all my dreams and me! Now, Im reducing ego to get this back; get back to the beginning and starting over! I have to have an inhalation of the false past! This would include all the way back with any memories of the psychopaths! The reason being; they were a false host living off my life from the begging! Just like cancer; it all must be eradicated from my programming and a new dominant story but in its place that I may because who I am suppose to become!
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I will need support for my desire; this, I will ask source energy and the universe for help!
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As for women; I continue to get stronger with the interaction of saying hello or hand shaking or asking to walk with them!
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Calling women has not been traditionally successful but God or universal based successful! Im able to get phone number; some are wrong numbers and some; no answer! no one calls me back. I will continue regardless! The goal is the frontal interaction, nothing more! I dont care if I have to work through a thousand women in order to develop my skills; makes no different to me!
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I have to have skills if Im going to get my Asian-soulmate!
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In order to have my Asian-soulmate, I must move up the social ladder to a better quality people or cultural surrounding!