I will not see her again...
The PTSD Dissociative condition still effects me to the point of non response...
Its not the end of the world
I believe this girl liked me, I liked her.
I have to trust God, keep working with him. God is my higher power, not women or anything else on planet earth.....
I have to sacrifice; I cant respond, even if she likes me. To much control coming from the enemy camp. I cannot trust people.
Im working on this problem. I recognize I have a problem... However, I will not be able to save this passing possible relationship. I will have to wait for the next one... I find this last phrase horrible yet probable.
I love those that love me: I do not want to hurt them... I have to let this go, stay away from her and the arenas she visits... its not all about her.... Its about me...
I feel disappointed and sad..
She is in control of to many things.. Its all to much for me: her life. I live in my mind in the abstract, Im not used to so much interaction... Im sorry if I hurt her... may God take care of her and may she forgive me.... I would have been her friend if I could have found a way to trust again...