Real things are going on; moving forward; on n on and getting better about my understanding of how or why I change my thinking.
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My goal is success; I take this to the universe. Unfortunately I have a thug mentality; this means I want to be worshipped like a God when I haven't earned it; I pat myself on the back because Ive survived bad things and that qualifies me as a thug; an identity that not everyone can be a part of. However, the real world for thugs is not real; its violence and death and other illegal substances; and those substances can also include bad or evil or violent thinking.... Basically a thug is violence; nothing more; it's an on off switch of street soldier mentality. In my opinion thugs are either complete sociopaths or on drugs; drugs that make them psychopaths or act out in behaviors of psychopaths... or a combination of both.
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Heres the problem; do I want to be the top of thug heap and admired; top of the savages; that would feel righteous and good; or do I want allot of money! ITs as simple as that....
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What I think when I wake up in the morning will determine what level of vibration Im on for the day. If Im thinking about money; piles of it; vats of it; boxes full of it; and I see it in my head with a favorable opinion; thats what will be brought to me at some point because thats what Im focusing on. Momentum is not strong at first; Im not up to speed; Ive got a journey to experience that brings that vibration up to a high mark and a journey that will close the get; thus; taking me to the money; but if I continue to see money in my head and align my vibration with my inner beings and we are in unison and Im willing to stay at a positive High vibration during the day; Ill soon be presented with opportunities to receive money or a pathways that will lead me to such things; such riches.
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My most important and sought after riches?; a good attitude. A good attitude is my number 1# riches; for with a pleasing and prosperous and enthusiastic attitude about any movement; I can go anywhere and do anything and Ill appreciate it and love it; and Im working toward this and it puts a smile on my face and in my heart.... It is my number one goal and it is right with God, with man, with my heart and with me... Its a great thing to work toward...
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The work is in the pathways.
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My thinking is the problem; when I think about money or something else I want; for a split second I see what I want with a favorable attitude; then suddenly it goes bad; its warped and filled with fear and anger; the thoughts; and suddenly flashbacks and bad thinking of bad people; people who I have resentments for; it all creeps in and weakens my original attempts at focusing on what I want; So; their it is; theirs the problem; my thinking meanders to bad people and places and things and this thinking takes me over and for some reason; I blame you and everyone else because of how Im thinking; its the worlds fault; and this type of attitude is thuggery; Its born of thuggery; giving me a reason to be a thug; but what about the money; who's going to concentrate on the money....
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So; when Im at a higher level of feelings; pathways open up around me and will I take the oopporulntity?
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How bad do I want the money; have I been focusing on the money or the lack of the money in my life. So; the work is to focus on the money; and if I get bad thoughts popping in; pull out immediately; go general; switch thinking; think about something else. Then go back to the money thoughts; practicing over n over; more n more n more; any negative thoughts that I stray to; get out of them and go general and then go back to the money thoughts and keep at it for the rest of my life. Soon; pathways will open that lead to the money.
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The vibration must be strong enough to attract what I want. So; momentum must build; this does not happen at the beginning of my fantasy; it must be built. Over time it becomes a healthy obsession; and I align this with my higher power; when I can feel that alignment and I breath easy; Im in a state of bliss and union within myself; suddenly the go a head is upon me and I made a decision to proceed; And at the moment doors open to what I want.
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One area I'm working on; make the universe buy it; make the universe come up with the money; I get short sited and greedy and want it now; If I want the universe to pay for it; I've got to focus on the universe paying for it and not me paying for it; and it must be positive thoughts; not anger thoughts of feeling less then or without and how the universe wont show up for me; those thoughts must be bi past and flipped to prosperity thoughts; and thats where the work is; changing those thoughts until the money shows up.
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I have this prison camp mentality against my self. my personality is locked down by my nervous system ; but Im learning to do new thing anyway...
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Im getting closer; better at the inner journey of success; but Im a big talker and still haven't begun. Im getting better at talking and thats a start; its slowly building more confidence and thats all Im looking for right now....
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I love the idea of empowerment; to be empowered and to feel empowered in society and not a victim; that is something Im looking for; it gives me peace of mind.
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Anyway; Im all new to this stuff... Ive hardly gotten my feet wet...