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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Mon Oct 30, 2017 7:39 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | PTSD/Visualizing and keeping your sanity |
ITs hard when your face to face with PTSD! I practice visualizing; Im into LOA work! so, for my goals, I see them first! I have to practice third eye meditations; things like transcendental meditations! . I see myself in my mind looking outward in first person point of view! And I see the room Im in from this third eye in my imagination; in fact, I fact that room when Im in the third eye! . The point; I visualize the room Im actually in with my eyes closed and start from their! I imagine what is behind me and in front of me and the sides and the floor and the celling! I imagine what right behind me and under me! I feel my own weight and I thank my body and feel my presence in its space! . Suddenly I realize, Im somewhere else; However, I know Im not! I know Im in this room, my room; so I focus on my room again, the walls and sharp corners! celling! . I then attempt to imagine something else; maybe a new truck! and suddenly the other PTSD worlds come in! . New visualization or words trigger new emotions or thoughts and the PTSD grabs them and infiltrates itself in! Im learning to visualize back into the room Im in! stay present. . Im damaged in the focal areas, where you see right out side your eyes; lots of dissociation in these areas! causes pain! . I imagine my own body and hands and face and feel my feet and my legs! I see my head next to the pillow! . I want to dissociate and I do but its getting better! . Whats the best thing that could happen; focus on that! This will be my new mantra! . Ive noticed that the visualization process; when pain occurs; I can sometimes see where its coming from, what Im visualizing on thats popping into my brain! and I see myself at age 12 in new un friendly surroundings and bad neighborhoods with drugs and bullies and no life for myself! and that is automatic; its hardwired to show up; those thoughts; but not anymore; because Im now working on it! . When I feel that stress; that PTSD stress and fear and panic and terror, it triggers other thoughts and time periods and they layer on top of each other! And its hardcore; I mean like stone! like a cloud made of stone rolls in and takes over my mind! Not now; Im working on it! I see it and start visualizing something new; I visualize Im in my room; the room Im actually in! . So, Im learning about my brain and my thinking! Im learning how to change my thoughts and where the PTSD damage is and when it hits! . Im getting a new freedom on life because of this work with visualization; I must remember, Im not just learning visualization; Im damaged; my mind is damaged! So, much work has to go into this; my mind gets triggered very easily! . My mind gets triggered from words or feelings or physical movements! one move of the head and Im back in an episode of PTSD somewhere in time and space! . IF I want to visualize what I want for my future; I have to get good at it! |
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