Playing the victim means, playing the victim to someone.
Its hard to get out of the victim roll. Im in the beginning process of learning how to get out of the victim roll.
I think when one is ready to look at this role, one is at the edge of change; as I am. Im starting to change people, places, and things.
Many manipulative people do not want me to change. Many have written me off as week or meek or ineffective drool.
I have written many people off; those that are ineffective to garner a conscious toward manhood or world-hood.
Those that are ineffective are not staying in my life.
Im interested in real people. The meek, the broken hearted; yet, those that seek a real God.
I have dissociative work to do; I have to get back my integrity. A man that walks securely walks with integrity.
I must stay away from victimization. stay away from those who victimize, or learn to dodge the bullets..
So many manipulators in the world...
Ive been written off as a fool. Im afraid, this is what the world does to types like me! they are incorrect... I am no fool. They will never know, they don't care anyway...
I must remember Im dealing with the world and its arrogant people.
Im judged and put down by the unknowing...
Im not sure what to think anymore. Im not sure what people want; anymore!
What is your will father; what is your will...
Ive had the worst of people turn on me thinking Im stupid.