Our partner

User avatar
OMNICELL
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 1052
Joined: Tue Nov 15, 2011 5:06 am
Blog: View Blog (1751)
Archives
- March 2024
A gift from God #2
   Sat Mar 16, 2024 9:21 pm
The Gift from God…
   Tue Mar 12, 2024 5:29 pm
2 goals; elements of accomplishment
   Tue Mar 12, 2024 1:41 pm
Work Ethic is Needed Please
   Tue Mar 12, 2024 4:46 am
Some Solutions; Lot of Hope
   Thu Mar 07, 2024 5:39 am

+ February 2024
+ January 2024
+ December 2023
+ November 2023
+ October 2023
+ September 2023
+ August 2023
+ July 2023
+ June 2023
+ May 2023
+ April 2023
+ March 2023
+ February 2023
+ January 2023
+ December 2022
+ November 2022
+ October 2022
+ September 2022
+ August 2022
+ July 2022
+ June 2022
+ May 2022
+ April 2022
+ March 2022
+ February 2022
+ January 2022
+ December 2021
+ November 2021
+ October 2021
+ September 2021
+ August 2021
+ July 2021
+ June 2021
+ May 2021
+ April 2021
+ March 2021
+ February 2021
+ January 2021
+ December 2020
+ November 2020
+ October 2020
+ September 2020
+ August 2020
+ July 2020
+ June 2020
+ May 2020
+ April 2020
+ March 2020
+ February 2020
+ January 2020
+ December 2019
+ November 2019
+ October 2019
+ September 2019
+ August 2019
+ July 2019
+ June 2019
+ May 2019
+ April 2019
+ March 2019
+ February 2019
+ January 2019
+ December 2018
+ November 2018
+ October 2018
+ September 2018
+ August 2018
+ July 2018
+ June 2018
+ May 2018
+ April 2018
+ March 2018
+ February 2018
+ January 2018
+ December 2017
+ November 2017
+ October 2017
+ September 2017
+ August 2017
+ July 2017
+ June 2017
+ May 2017
+ April 2017
+ March 2017
+ February 2017
+ January 2017
+ December 2016
+ November 2016
+ September 2016
+ August 2016
+ July 2016
+ June 2016
+ May 2016
+ April 2016
+ March 2016
+ February 2016
+ January 2016
+ December 2015
+ November 2015
+ October 2015
+ September 2015
+ August 2015
+ April 2015
+ March 2015
+ February 2015
+ January 2015
+ December 2014
+ November 2014
+ October 2014
+ September 2014
+ August 2014
+ July 2014
+ June 2014
+ May 2014
+ April 2014
+ March 2014
+ February 2014
+ January 2014
+ December 2013
+ November 2013
+ October 2013
+ September 2013
+ August 2013
+ July 2013
+ June 2013
+ May 2013
+ April 2013
+ March 2013
+ February 2013
+ January 2013
+ December 2012
+ November 2012
+ October 2012
+ September 2012
+ August 2012
+ July 2012
+ June 2012
+ May 2012
+ April 2012
+ March 2012
+ February 2012
+ January 2012
+ December 2011
+ November 2011
Search Blogs

Now what!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Mon Nov 28, 2016 9:55 am

Im constantly without support for higher level things! I have support to lower level things; not for my better or intellectual self!

Technically Ive gone as far as I can in the 12 step system! it is like a giant psych hospital for me! its a place I've used to hide out, hide away! now; I dont want to hide their anymore! when I was in college; I hid out! before this; I hid in relatives houses and basements or my mothers house! before this, I was hiding from the neglect I was experiencing! Ive been hiding all of my life! Ive been hiding from terror and abuse and bulling of one level or another! Or from complete rejection of everything and everyone!

Im working with God on my future! Im not sure what it is or what it looks like yet! I have no idea career wise! I can only guess! I feel like an 8 year old trying to make decision for what or who I will become in 30 years!

Its like living in the twilight zone; your never living how you want to live or up to your potential! Im not protected in a fine or good career! Im not in anything! i was thrown away young into mass poverty and confusion! meaning, my schooling was ruined, and I was ruined! and given away or thrown away! I was defranchised from my way of life very young; I could not regain myself because I had no established myself! my maturity is so very young within me that it off balances everything! I never thought this would happen to me; Im attempting to regain myself in life some how! Im working with success based thinking ignored to regain my life!

Time keeps ticket into the future! Im 54 today! Im always running and hiding! that is all I do! I haven't thought about establishing myself at anything; Im to pissed of and angry! but Im slowly allowing myself or willing to think in terms of what I would like to do! but their is no support team that wishes me well; like a family! not for me! at least, not in the present! The last thing I remember; I was 8 years old! and here I am now!

Ive worked through much of my dissociative disorder; but very little when it comes to making money or the understanding of it! However, Im working on those things! I have to work with God and learn to trust God!

One day moves into another like a bad dream! Im not connected into anything! I learned to be disconnected when I was being abused or manipulated by my Grandparents! they were no Grandparents; just sycophants! degenerate child molesters! My Grandmother allowed it; so she is accomplice to it! she was told and did nothing! They were liars! They did nothing for me; I lived with them; they cared nothing about my schooling or future! no one did! I was thrown away and passed from place to place to place; I watched all my dreams die! and me with it!

I have God! Those who do not accept me do not accept the God that is in me!

The goal is to work through the limiting beliefs and see if I cant make a dent in the world at some point from my opinion!

The idea is; make a new story! and that is what Im attempting!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
0 Comments Viewed 10932 times

Who is online

Registered users: Bing [Bot], Google [Bot], Google Feedfetcher