Ive mentioned in my blogs about these vast amounts of women being in love with me!
OK; Ive had many women in the past find me attractive; they've told me so!
So, out of the meetings! how many women find me attractive and want to date me or have been in love with me? In my fantasy, many of them. In reality; I now of 1!
Im attempting to go from "I think" to real dating! This is done by learning how to approach people and talk to them! I may find Im not as attractive in the ways Id like! I won't know until I try.
I talked to a women from my meetings for over 2 hours outside today! Thats a record; 5 years ago, she would not be within 100 feet of me!
I came up to a women that was a stuck up bitch to me all this year; I pushed her on the shoulder, and told her I liked what she said yesterday! I would have never gotten close to her! So things are changing!
Im learning to let go of problem people;
I sound much more mature when talking to people!
A guy I know from the meetings has invited me to go water skiing and boating with him and the rest of the gang this summer; how great and cool is that! Im so stocked to be included.. ITs really cool! all that I could have ever dreamed about! He's invited me more n more. Im starting to talk to him more n more one to one!
Looks like my life is slowly coming back! slowly! Im curious to see how far! My old dreams as a child are coming back looking for answers; as if nothing had ever changed. Im starting where I left of! although, Im not fully or completely able to handle reality!
The interaction part of this is going to be strenuous and confusing! Im going to be hurt, and needy for a long while until I find out who I am relative to everyone else ( who likes me; who does not)! I must learn to adjust!
It will take awhile of getting mistreated until I find out who will not mistreat me! It will take time until I can learn how to interact with others again!