Not doing so well! don't want to be alive anymore! No changes! just fear of everything!
Im so very tired!
I feel like Im in hell, and Im paying for someone else's past life! maybe I was Adolf Hitler, and I don't know it! and Im in a new life paying for what he did! but I don't know that I was him! something!
God does not seem to care if I kill myself!
I don't want to be alive! its a ######6 pain amplifier! I cant believe some idiot took the right for people to cuss out of a psych forum! Who's running this place! This is not a place to be polite or kiss up to people!
Ive tried! Im not getting anywhere! Im tired!
If I had a way to die; I would! I don't want this anymore!
every time I wake up; I wake up to nothing! nothing has changed! Im yet in another town with nothing! No changes! Why? How many times have I reached out to God and he does nothing!
IT does nothing for me to wake up! nothing! I have nothing! I don't want to be alive!
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Im the most talented person you have ever met! means nothing@! I have no place to practice ! It means nothing! its worthless, useless! I just want to die! I don't want to be here anymore!
I don't understand; I feel like Im in hell! I did something to God! and I don't know what I did! what did I do! Who was I in a past life! What did I do!
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Ive tried to work on success stuff! but nothing is happening! I give up! I go back to God! again and again and again and again! like a game; he doesn't show up! and I want to kill myself!
I would do anything to kill myself; anything! everything! I just want to leave this miserable place and never ever come back!
Ive tried! I go back to God and try again! with God! What this time!
My life is a waist of time! its a waist!
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How can I have girlfriends! I'mpossible! I will get violent with them! they will piss me off! Im not happy! I am not a happy person! They can do nothing for me! I will get frustrated with them!
I have no place; no privacy! nothing! I cant be myself! I just want to kill myself!
If I go out with a women; very soon I will start complaining! I have no practice room! no creative place to be alone or be myself! She will not be able to help!
I have no friends! nothing! Its like Im in hell! it never ends!
Ive asked God for help! nothing!
IVe ask God for a soulmate; Asian soulmate; nothing!
Ive ask God concerning how Im going to interact with a girlfriend if I have no outlets for my intelligence! Nothing; no answer!
IVe asked God for a practice room! Nothing!
IVe asked God for the ability to see steps moving in a direction toward my goals; nothing!
IVe pleaded with God for help; nothing!
Ive asked God not to wake me up if he was going to abandon me; He has abandon me!
I just want to die! it its never ending! Im so so tired!
My talents are dead! No place to practice!
its always about money! everything is!
IVe asked God for money! for the ability to make money; nothing! no answer!
I wont use my telescopes anymore! no place to use them; again; no private space!