Im working with the laws of attraction to attract the right women! I thought I had attracted numerous women; Now; I dont believe I attracted anyone! No one has shown up yet!
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Certainly, as usual, Im not in the right place for picking up soulmates!
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I thought women wrote me off; Now; I dont believe they were ever noticing me or thinking about me in the first place! it was all in my imagination!
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Where do I go from here?
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What type of women am I attracting; where are they from! where do I meet them! it gets dam frustrating!
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I have to start over; but with who! and where! I have to work with the laws of attraction! Im not sure what Im looking for! no one has shown up! The girls I thought the universe brought me; I strike'd them out! ITs to late for them; source energy has to bring me new people!
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Im not sure if source energy ever brought me anyone! I thought the universe had brought me women of interest! Now; I dont believe any of them were ever interested in me or ever saw me!
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Ive never seen anyone who has such bad luck; simply getting a girlfriend! Ive never really had one! only once in my life did I actually like someone, and I blew that; but when I attempted to go back, I was ridiculed like a loser and a weakling; written off! Did I attempt to prove myself; no! I got out of the way and let the person believe what they wanted! They had no respect for what I was going through!
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Im not sure why Im at odds with women! I didnt think I was at odds with them! I guess I am; I dont know what to think!
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Im not around the right people! I guess I chalk it up to getting better from dissociative disorder; but the people are all wrong!
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Im not sure what to think; Im trying to work with God concerning all this! Im so tired when it comes to women! I always have been!
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I dont understand! They dont seem to have any value for anything! the women Ive been around have no value for me! its old and tiring! I dont get it!
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I dont seem to have any real friends; no relationships or occupations or family! No one seems to be interested in me as a human being; and never was! I dont get it! I turn to God; and nothing!
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The reason Im still alive is occupations and relationships! that was the deal I made with God; so; where are they! wheres the path that leads to these things! where is it!
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Im not sure who Im suppose to be around! I dont know!
Im not sure what to think!
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Ive watched my love life never ever get started; ever! I dont understand it! Im a respectable decent human being! Where are the people Im suppose to associate with!
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Im waking up alone again; as usual! Meaning; my whole life! alone as usual! I cant understand the universe; the energy of the universe! what is the point of this! Where am I suppose to be or what am I suppose to be doing! I dont get it! I never get an answer ever! I get led on a wild chase that gets me know where! I dont understand or get it!
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Im not around friendly people that care what happens to me!
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The problem I have is time! Year after year after year of this! and for what; Im no more connected now then before! nothing!
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Im not around people that appreciate me for any reason! Where are these people that take me for what Im worth; are they all in disney land! I dont get it!
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Tomorrow I've been offered to go on a hike; of course the person texted back that he wants his girl friend with him and their bringing another women; but it would be Three against me! I have nothing to discuss with these people! it would do nothing for my social abilities; they would make sure of that! I want to grow! Im not interested! Ive seen this before! Im simply not around the right people! Im not! Im trying to move forward! I need help! I need to be around the right people!