I cannot think of anything; not one redeeming quality of the first 20 years of my life or specifically the first 18; I was fighting to stay afloat while others were murdering me; I never had a chance!
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My mind is asleep! and I have to work with the universe to wake up knowing Im safe!
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One area of extreme importance is follow through! My mind is a trap. I find a desire but do not follow through; I have apposing views on everything; almost all values and things I want to do! Ive learned from the success based coaches Ive listened to; One works at changing their beliefs until a dominant thought takes over; one is not ruled by one thought going in one direction and the other thought going in the other direction! you know what direction to go and you finish it out all the way!
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I have to work on my goals and practice goals! For example; I might want a new RC rock crawler; and I want the universe to show up with the money; I have to believe it! the work is not in getting the rock crawler, the work is believing the universe will bring it to me vs believing I want it but its missing and the universe isn't showing up with it! I have to change my beliefs on this! and theirs the work I have to do!
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Im getting better at being committed to my success based thinking programs! It will take much more work!
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My mind was put to sleep by bad people and Im trying to wake it up!
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Ive found that I have to keep most things to myself; many people have no depth of character to handle what I would tell them; they dont believe me; especially when talking about trauma issues! When Im discussing something of deep trauma with a person who has been taken advantage of; we get along; they understand me!
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Now; Im trying to make that change! the first and most important rule is to learn how to follow through with a dominant thought and work with the universe to get my gaol!