Im shoring up the latest move forward; new territory has been secured. Im further then before in this war struggle for stability and human age appropriate experiences.
The goal 4 years ago; relearn how to interact with people. I bought Dvd series on dating, approaching, being funny, communication. How to dress, how to walk, talk, groom, act. I started over from the beginning. the gaol was friends. With full dissociative disorder, I was completely disabled. I could not interact with anyone. So, the idea was to work through this disorder with a structured ridged system learning to approach people and ask for basic dates and phone numbers.
Three step process:
1. make myself attractive
2. create attraction and learn about attraction and rooms it is created in!
3. Approach, conversate, ask for date!
I have just completed all three areas in one or more forms.
Today a women friend from a meeting and I talked! We talked last week for 1 hour. We made a date to have coffee in the hallway of the church and talk. This was successful. I used starter conversation pieces with her, and was able to keep her interest...
Today, I asked her if she was going to Walmart, she said yes, I said I wanted to come along! she said yes, we made a date of it and headed to Walmart. We talk about many things.. she is going to help me with my women relationship issues, if I need to know about women, I call her! if I need to know more about what a women wants and how to approach a date, I can call her...
GIrls, Girls, Girls!;
The new girl at the meetings probably has a new boyfriend because I did not hit on her in time, However, she is still interested in me. I saw her at the store parking lot and I could tell by the way she was looking at me while she said hello, she still liked me. However, Im so sorry!, You may not go out on me during the courting process, you are gone, I will never talk to her ever again! She will be replaced! Her life is now, none of my business and never will be.. I follow God, and God will only tolerate so much from someone. I have been hurt by this and its time to move on, and time to let go of scumbags, and time to let go of taking the wrong people seriously.
conversation starters found on the internet; very helpful! :
Ive been practicing my conversation starters with many people with various results. Im getting better with being open around people. At some point I will be dating again.
Women find me safe:
Ive been told by several women that the reason Im being flattered by these beautiful girls taking an interest in me is because they trust me and find me safe!; this is what Im told. Hmmmm........
If I keep working at things, at some point I will be dating again, Im slowly working towards full integration. The war is slowly being mopped up!
Im working my way into a new way of thinking, and this new thinking is giving me hope, and it keep growing and growing!
I need to learn how to stay away from the bad apples!