As I work though the past and what happened to me; what was done to me, I slowly awaken to the fact that it might be possible with enough dicipline to make things happen again in my life! I spent half my life chasing after an old family system that never loved me or cared to see me again! Now; I dont care! I know what they are! and have moved on! I am now learning how to be on my own independently of the past! I would be interesting to actually become someone again! Meaning, old dreams awaken!
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Im learning on my own how to prosper in what Im functioning in; Im studying success based thinking and its having its affect!
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The greatest thing I could say; I dont need anyone from the past coming back! I can work at things on my own and succeed! This means, I go to meetings, 12 step meeting and other things to get the attention I need! and everything else Im learning to work with God!
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The outside world is shallow; and I get tired of it and its people! I dont give people a break! I tell them where Im at, I dont add history! if they want to be entertained; let them go somewhere else! Im not the entertainer today!
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Im learning to keep working through the past; keep working through it until I can work through things in the present! Im getting closer and stronger !