Women are what most of my blogs are about! Im dealing with the scarcity of women! Im working with the universe on attracting the right women! This seems o so hard to do! I just want a wife; its as simple as that; Someone I can love that loves me! The universe knows who she is! My inner being knows who she is!
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ITs getting harder; more frustrating! All I deal with are pretentious white women or others that are pretentious!
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Id be interested in women who have been damaged like I am but dont use drugs and are not deceptive; interested in down to earth people; someone I can love; is it so hard to find!
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I have allot of PTSD to work through! Im getting stronger and my mind is allowing me to see much of it; or the start of it; being thrown away and the putdowns and other levels of trauma! I never had anywhere to run and hide! Stripped of my home; I had to live other places with people who did not want me or cared if I was dead or alive!
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Im now interested in facing some of the PTSD!
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Im interested in new experiences!
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The outside world is so scary and harsh! Sometimes I wonder how anyone can survive out their!
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The people in the outside world seem so cold and unapproachable; like Im not wanted by anyone!
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I have to work with the universe on meeting new people! I cant stand shallow people! I cant deal with them; any of them! I feel so out of place in the human race!
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I wonder around department stores; thats as close to being intimate with others as I can get!
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So; I have allot of work to do meeting new people!