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Men and entitlement!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Mon Oct 12, 2015 5:54 am

Im an older man! O. God, not that! Look out women! Here I come! Im just on that verge of being " one of those"!

As men get older, they get pissed of and bitter toward women for not wanting them! Meaning, the women are not interested anymore in the older man! They can be! But chances are, the young women probably has a boyfriend!

Men feel viral into old age! But that does not mean a young women is interested!

Nothing is more insecure then the realization your one of those older guys prying on to a new girl with desperation! A new girl meaning, any new women that joins the group or the club or the office, or what ever; the church! What ever this means! A man that wants to get is hooks into the new girl! Hooks might not be the right word! He wants to be noticed! But he's no competition for the younger guys!

Im trying to stay away from this but its hard; really hard!

I got pissed of tonight when a young women announced that she has a boyfriend! Man, that really did it to me! Deflated what ever was left of my fantasy for her!

Desperation! Thats what I call it! Its like theirs only one women in town!

Ill have to pray about this one!

It's really really hard! One feels instilled! Ive worked hard for a long time at my recovery process! I should be a hero for a day, this girl should look up to me and want me! But no! She does not! She has a boyfriend! And I feel deflated and desperate! I feel hurt and let down! I just wanted someone to notice me! Im a human being like everyone else!

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Im a fairly desperate lonely needy individual! Ive come along ways! But have had very few relationships! And finding the right people for those relationships is hard!

In fact, I have not found anyone for them; I have not looked! Ive been in groups with women in those groups! Possibly its time to find better groups of people!

I can think of many women who hate my guts! Find me disgusting and feel their status is superior!

Im looked down on by others and not understood! Considering the kind of meetings Im going to! And the liars in these meetings; Im not surprised!

Im wondering where else I can go to meet people!

If I was not involved in the 12 step programs! I would have no reason to be in the town Im in! It would be a ghost town for me! There is nothing else in this town for me!

How do I make something for myself!

At times Ive been around different groups of people! I was not appreciated by anyone! l

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I have damage! Ive been damaged by women? I guess! Damaged by my mother! The problem with women; Im being closed out of no interest because Im honest and wont put up with manipulators! Most of the manipulators don't like me! They consider me a women hater! Well,!

I don't see myself as a women hater! I see myself as someone that doesn't like criminal based sociopaths in any form; including women based sociopaths! It does not work for me! And it reminds me of my mother and what she did to me and others!

When I see a women play me! I'm finished with her! I have no tolerance for it!

Ive fallen for a few young women who manipulate older men; leading them on; the man thinking he has a chance with this young women when he has no chance with her! Ive been smart enough to stay back and be cautious! I still get hurt! Even from a distance! But I never really get involved!

I caught a few of them at this game! Im not happy about it! Its unethical! It causes great harm to people!

Im not interested in associating with people that harm other people!

Im not interested in associating with others that condemn the innocent so this evil can hide!

Dissociative Disorder
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AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
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