So, I will LOA techniques to attract women that will find me irresistible!
I will use First Person POV visualization! I will start with hand shake, as she is standing in front of me; I will then hug her! And be up close to her face! I will close my eyes up close and kiss her! Its all visualization! And I will have 20 or 30 prototype women in my imagination; all standing next to each other! I will move from one to the other and practice seducing them; all in my mind!
Ive been practicing shaking hands in FP POV! the visualization is; Im in the front of a ski lodge, and 30 women are in front of me in a group, they've surrounded me and I can spend time looking at them in the face; practice smiling, and shaking hands! Next comes hugging each one! One at a time! Next; kissing on them; practice making out with each of them; the hard part is creating their faces and having their eyes blink while Im kissing them!
In order to kiss in FP POV; you have to get up close to the women's face! This is quit an interesting experience to create because she is so close to your face! You have to slowly move toward her and she moves toward you; your face gets exceptionally large because you're getting closer to it!
The point is practice!
Also, writing is exceptionally important in LOA! I would write up a day in my future life; Im holding a women and kissing on her passionately! Details after detail after details! I would explain in my paper what I am doing in real time as if Im their! Relive the whole thing on paper first! Write my future in real time on paper!
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The past;
Im slowly getting to the point of moving from the past to the present! Ive done the resentment work! The forgiveness work is another matter; Im doing it! Its slow!
Forgiveness means; every time I move forward emotionally and see or feel the picture of those from the past; I forgive them at least 20 times in a row; over n over n over; every time I see a picture of them in my mind! And I continue to do this until I get myself back; until I own myself and no one else!
I must learn what it feels like to owned by no one! This means I have to own me! Im not a victim of the past anymore! And that can be a scary deal!
When you have learned helplessness and know nothing else; its strange to get your freedom back! Mine is not back yet! It's getting closer!
As I let go of the past; I work on the future! What are my goals! I create a desire and a picture of that desire in my imagination! I see myself in FP POV; Im doing it, living it, sleeping with it, throwing it, playing it! Molding it like clay or washing it! Driving it!
The idea of goals; Its about how I feel! I will feel better if I have those things or experiences! And or the journey to get them!
None of this is for the faint of heart! But if your desperate like I am ( smile)!; It can be done! And I am doing it!
The idea is; It is normal to move on from Mom n Pop! But not when your busted up before your time; like I was!
IVe learned with the help of others and God, to slowly work through my past; ever so slowly, letting go! Ive learned to have God glue me back together! Past, present, future!
The present is about honesty! Who am I really! Be myself around others; thats the idea! I hated this for a long time because I had nothing to show anyone! I knew my worth! I had no idea why anyone would see it! No one cared about me or my worth; why would they care now!
I have a different view on things! Today, Im heading toward creating my life again! Ive worked though many things; realizing, those from the past are not showing up! What ever I want or who ever I am; Im on my own with God and 12 step groups and counselors and psych groups and others stuff; and goals and desires manifesting into reality; many things!
God is running everything now! and I will let him and stay out of it! And letting God run everything; this is the key! this is the learning lesson! Its better to learn to live ones life! be happy!
Happiness is the number one key!
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As my childhood memories return to me; I continue down the independent path I started out with! I have not waisted my time! I would have had no life if I had not done what Ive done!
I can regain a life! I don't know if it was supposed to be something else; God is in charge and is allowing the path before me to light up in order to get me back to functioning and happy again! And it's happening! Im making my own independent choices!
For example!
I did allot of soulmate work! Most of this work shows an asian women as my bride at some point! I did not know what to think of this! And Im very curious to know who it is!
Im very curious to know where God has her packed away; or where I will travel to find her! I must socially be in the right state of mind if I want to meet her and be successful with her! And God is bringing back my mind, that I be able!
All negative fear can be worked out! And I will work it out; I have the information!
When you know what you want; all you have to do is go get it!
When you make a decision; you go toward your decision!
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As I wake up; Im waking up to allot of problems with people! they are bullies and arrogant and many things! liars; cheats! Not nice people!
I have to learn to be quick witted on my feet!
I have to learn to stand up for myself in intimidating situations! this is very confusing with PTSD!
I must ask God for a group of loving caring people to surround me on my journey!
I can visualize these people first before I meet them!