Im in the city I grew up in; home town! I don't like it here! Theres nothing here for me; but theres less anywhere else! At least here I have memories! Thats all of this life I have! I have nothing left!
I had everything stolen from me from the original family system! I wont receive any inheritance from anyone! It was all cheated away from me!
No one was on my side! Never had been! Liars and cheats! Scum bags!
I can get horribly mad about it; thats what they wont!
I was thrown away! Now Im attempting to get my life back without anyone from my original life!
Ive been hated through rumor! Ive been hated by people who I did not know hated me! I never did anything to them; at one time we were friends! Not now! They think they are superior! God will have his way with them!
My goal is to work with the Universe to mend my past! And become the real me again without the original players!
Im not sure how to do this! Not yet! Im working on it!
Im in the middle of a big ugly struggle; very violent in PTSD nature! Very rage based! To reconnect will not be easy! Lots of worlds I don't want to see; lots of abandonment I don't want to deal with!
Im going to see flash back after flash back!
The real me is trapped inside this time period! Its as if I can see me in a moving picture and nothing more! A picture that sits in front of me! While I the observer is lost!
I must turn to God and keep working with God!