My goal is to become social. My goal is; meeting new people by being friendly when I meet them!
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Ive been so jealous of everything and everyone one! I missed out on everything!
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The point; I would rather become social; a bit more social with everyone I meet; that I become present! and after feeling better about myself; not needing anyone; allowing the source of the universe to drop the right people in my lap!
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Im really dreamy and insecure and needy when it comes to women; sensitive would be the right ward! I dont want to be around insensitive people that see my value as marginable.
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Im scared of connection with women because I need them much more then they need me! In fact; I might be attracting that kind of person because that is my fear!