So it begins;
Im starting to remember who I am and where I came from! It's not easy, many memories are starting to allow me to meander around in them! This is my childhood!
The problem; My childhood was filled with deception! I did not know about this deception; deceptive people! To my face, they smiled! Deceptive worthless people in every direction! Liars and thieves that never showed their true colors until they stele from you and get away with it!
In real life; many good people are destroyed; they don't win! But they win with God!
Thieves get away with things; you must, I must forgive and get them out of my nervous system and out of my life! Stop concentrating on criminals; stop calling them anything other then criminal! Godless, Lawless! They don't care! They have no conscious! I must move on from them!
I have to go back into those memories and remember! for I am in those memories! the good me; Me, before I was hurt! that part of me needs to get reconnected!
Its hard because Im going back into situations where I had fun with people that will later destroy me or attempt to claim they never knew me! who try to kill me or kill my worth or my voice in one way or another!
worthless scumbags!
They claim later to never have met me or known me! as if I didn't exist or never knew them or never associated with them! They did this when my mind was gone from PTSD and dissociative disorder! I needed help! they slammed their doors in my face! and they did this when I was underage!
I have to remember who I was when around them! its hard, I will remember them! and being in their houses and associating with them! and I will remember myself and my worth! and next time I will learn who to trust and who not to trust!
I was thrown away! and no one cared! Now, Im attempting to get my life back! that means full restoration of my memories as a child! remembering who the independent me; is!
Im going back into my memories to get the vital parts of self; the enriched parts of self and bring them forward!
I was and am mad about inheritance I got locked out of! or swindled out of! I learned my lesson!
However, God was trying to help me! he was allowing me to know; have no part of them or their money or their way of life; nothing associated with those people is free! get out from among them!
God can duplicate anything I need!