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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:41 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Ive found some answers |
Dating, sex, intimacy; getting close to women, talking to women; problem; critical voice; and dissociation into flashbacks; the flash backs hit fast;quick; they appear as soon as I start thinking in any level of depth and feeling. . Music career, Art career, blocked from CPTSD critical voice... I cant make three chords until the CPTSD takes over and knocks me useless through flashbacks... . Mathematics; Anything doing with studying; I freeze up; and flashback. A wall of massive flashbacks. . Most of the pain is coming from seeing my mothers voice; seeing her hovering over me; like Im a small child and she is behind me putting me down; convincing me Im not good enough for anyone or anything. And I was told I was not good enough for a model or a pretty girl when I got older. . I know my mother took on her fathers persona; He was an evil; extreme bad demonic individual. My mother was blue printed with this persons personality. I have all the ideas in the world what he did to her to turn her into a psychopath. She is not a victim or my victim; She is a female Ted Bundy; I do not feel sorry for her or anyone else like this; a pure form predator. . Im getting flash backs just writing this. . O; and no ability to have financial or career success; money success’ nothing; no movement... . So; work will go into removing the critical voice from CPSTD. . 0 Comments Viewed 1 time |
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