ITs a fact of life for people as myself! Ive worked with God for many moons in his dictatorship! I have worshiped my master, and I bow to him that I be fed, and in return he has brought my extension to earth and not in heaven. And truly this is a vacation! I get an extra life out of the deal!
Yet, Ive been alone! When others see you are different, and on a singular purpose, they get jealous, The demonic comes out of them and they thirst for blood! They want you dead! You are making them look like fools! and they want pay back!
I have seen this evil form of a tribe together. They attack the weaker that the weaker they do not become the stronger! I have seen many violations of human rights!
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I just got out of a meeting! I was OK! Im healing up! the people at the meeting; some of them, lots of them have written me of as a village idiot to ignore! I have to remember, these are murderers! and they see nothing! they see no value in me as I am not of this world. I prey to God above, their God is down below! and that is something I must remember if Im in the same room with them. God does not ask me to interact with them; its attraction not promotion! they have listened to me! they know my heart and do not care! I mean nothing to them, and never will! And its important not to take this kind of thing personally!
Many people wanted it their way and not fairly! If they don't get what they want for their agenda, they leave and go somewhere else! I am nothing more then an object commodity to these people. I am allocated to the lowest level of status! its stupid! but one must remember to respect the dead and dying! and those that practice this evil are the dead! the walking dead! they get their power from satan! THey are truly evil, and the darkness hates the light!
I know a sociopath when I see one! and they are scary people, and one should have a healthy respect for the danger of involvement they can manipulate through a target; Me!
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As I heal up, my real feelings are coming out! is it possible to be a whole person again without my mother and father, even tho, I went through such sadness. Well! it looks like its possible; thanks to Gods direction and the work put in!
I am slowly healing! Im looking forward to having real relationships and able to accomplish some activities.
I do not expect the world around me to understand! Most judge everything to death!
Im on the right track to healing; that is what counts...
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I would like to be a bit less ripped apart, that I may talk to more women!