Most of my blogs and FB writings and 12 step work are all about women! nothing else! Im looking for relationships! looking to get into them! so, I have to do the work to understand how to have dissociative disorder and long term PTSD worlds and interacted with the ladies! its as simple as that!
Its a hundred times harder for guys like me then the average person! When I get close to someone it feels like Im being tortured and the PTSD worlds go off!
Women; the idea is to gain enough experience to pull in the right people! Women are like anyone else; they are individuals; some good for me; some note; you have to weed through them, get to the top of the barrow with the good people; meaning, those that count! or count in my life!
ITs hard; you start out at the bottom, where no one likes you or knows you and sees nothing special about you! you have to work your way to the top!
Working your way up the latter is hard! its like working your way up a fish latter! you have thousands of fish coming at you from the other side!
Problems;
What do you wish for;
I work with the laws of attraction and the Universe for my experiences! and I trust and work with God!
Im gaining the experiences I need!
One big problem; people don't see your worth! They are shallow! I have to trust God and find better people when I get a chance!
Connecting with women who don't want to go out with me sucks! its a heart brake! You don't stop, you keep working at it! keep going!
I have to attract people that are interested in me as a person! and thats hard to find; but thats what Im looking for! I'm not interested in anything else!
This takes a lot of work!
I need to conquer this thing!
The main goal is experience! I need more dates, and more experience! and working with the universe more!
Lots of women out their will go on a coffee date with you but not marry you!
ITs interesting what women find attractive!
When Im myself and my guard is down; women are not attracted anymore!
ITs all good, its all hard! Im learning how to gain experience in the real world and stop being a victim around women!