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Things continue to change
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the strange world of getting better did
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This is not going to be easy.
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Identity 101; so; it officinally begins; the rebuilding
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Something positive is happening
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The Beatles
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A place exists
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Things are changing again
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Things are heating up; Im now backing down
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I have CPTSD
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Real changes are occurring
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Coming back into the present
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Im extremely frustrated
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Fining myself or facing myself
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Im beginning to understand
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Visualizing
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Starting from the beginning
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The trap house part 2
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The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
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Massive Mega paradigm shift
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First post recovery conversation
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Dating and Art
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movement
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childhood abandonment
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Being single
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Preview: PTSD; High School
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Fear
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Ive found some answers
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D.I.D; let me introduce myself
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PTSD; dealing with triggers.
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Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
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Molding sound like clay; having reasons; Things are changing
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critical voice
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Toxic shame
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Ive found some answers
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insecure around people when Im real; not playing the victim

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Tue May 08, 2018 8:40 pm

So, what would I be like if I had no excuses! What would I be like around others if I had no sorrow or pain! What would I be like! If I was a person with no pain, I would be able to walk up to someone and not care what they think or who they are; Im not looking for anything from them; Im blinding giving off or out attention! I would not care! I would walk up to them and be myself; outgoing! I would learn to take an interest in them in an outgoing way!
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If did not have problems with people, I would have to get a life!
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Confidence solves allot of problems! With confidence; Im no longer afraid! However, to gain confidence is to face things face to face; and this takes courage! its fearful; one can see the real me; the pain, the hurt, the sorrow, the real struggle! and see that I have no confidence around people! I don't; nothing!
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The goal is to make people laugh and feel loved and warmth; this means I have to love my life first; for how can I give something unless I first have it!
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When I see someone, do I judge them; it has to stop because it separates me from them! It separates me from any group Im in! Im not sociable! This means, all judgments stop at the door and I learn to have a friendly personality when around others! And then concentrate on getting my real life back!

Dissociative Disorder
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