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by **OMNICELL** on Sat Jul 19, 2025 6:12 am

Dating support;
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Ive been working on dating and social aspects for a while now with a sponsor. The goal was to come back from nothing; making my way all the way back to new experiences; experiences that would take me to popularity with women; wonderful conversations with women with confidence; and finally phone numbers and asking for dates. And; Ive gotten this far. Ive gotten all the way right up next to the first date; But it never happened… I never got the first date; I got smoked or ghosted on the last one.
So; Almost; But I got that far. And that is a super amount of experience; and I did it; Hurrah!
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So; after talking to the sponsor about all of it.
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I ended up at a meeting today; a special meeting; I go to on Fridays. I was totally dissociated and not sure what my future looked like. However; of all the strange but great things to happen; Dating came up as one of the topics and everyone started to open up; almost like a campfire group on an outing camping around the campfire at early dark… talking …. really intimate…
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I was shocked; and completely taken by surprise and what a great surprise. I got to open up yet again; and tell a group of people very close; that I had confidence; and no self worth when it came to dating; I had no sexual market value; because I had no idea who I am to anyone. And that I was bashful and afraid and petrified and scared to death of being rejected; Im super vulnerable.
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And that God finally told me to stop going after people that had no value for me; Just Stop.
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Now; Im gathering a team of individuals I can respond to as I go into the world of dating. The world of dating for me is much like a job search. Its serious business. Im looking for someone internally just like me.
Im an introvert; intellectual; shy withdrawn; bashful extremely secretive creative; shy.
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This type of person Im looking for; Ill have to get up to speed…
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I told the group; I wanted someone that missed me; cared if they had no seen me. Someone that when they woke up in the morning they thought about me and it meant something to them; they were thinking about me when they got up in the morning.
If they hadnt seen me for a year; they would always wonder what happened to me and they were thinking about me. If they saw me again; they would be excited to see me and enthusiastic; People interested in me.
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Thats what Im looking for and working with God on finding… and or attracting. And someone that wants to help me; build me up; as my best interests at heart. And so one. Someone that is my best friend wouldn't hurt either.
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Where in the world would I find someone like this? I don’t know; but my inner being knows; and God knows and the universe knows.
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So; Im kind of on that search and discovery process right now.
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So;
Back to the meeting; it was an exquisite meeting. And lifted my spirits through the roof; My God; it flipped everything over to the positive… incredible. Never in my life did I expect this to happen. Its like Gods hands just through a giant light of the spirit from outer space; right into the middle of our gathering. Now Im super stoked. Incredible.
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Ive got like one more meeting to bring up some other internalized secrets concerning dating; Mainly that I have no confidence in myself concerning women and dating. All I can do is take a chance and ask women; ask them for what I want… I have no idea of the outcome.
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I will continue to gather more people I can call on as part of my dating support group… Its just starting;
I have many many days of experience ahead dealing with women and getting support… learning how to interact with women again and dating again and having a girlfriend…

by **OMNICELL** on Thu Jul 17, 2025 4:19 am

New Identity;
Very simple.
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Im a recovery person;
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I live in a little recovery apartment;
I have my plastic model kits
I have my mountain bike
I attend recovery meetings
I have a recovery sponsor…
I have a higher power
Im on permanent mental disability…
Ive had problems in the past with substance abuse; Enough; not to be a visitor to the meetings but a member; But just barely; but still enough! Dual diagnosed with addictions and mental problems. Allot more on the “ Mental problems” side of things; but I still abused substances for relief…
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I go from here… forward; and learn a new design for living.
I use allot of the words and thoughts and phrasing and ideas and wisdom from other members; I use the books associated with the recovery fellowships I attend to learn how to live again in a practical day to day way within this simple life style. It is what it is…
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Note; its from this platform of recovery that I excel back into regular life.
Im not trying to “ Take a little time off from regular life”; to find myself in the recovery process; recover for 2 weeks and claim Im back to middle class life or job or something; That does not work for me. And its not a true statement. The trust is; Im in the recovery life identity for life; as life; this is my foundation; and it is where I start from. I don’t get to claim Im a big business man or lawyer or vise president of the Bank… and Im just taking a break for a few months.
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When I talk to people; I tell them the truth; I live a very simple recovery life style. And I have mental problems that do not go away. It makes life hard to be in reality on a daily basis.
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I have problems with people stalking me in the 12 meetings that I have to take care of. I don’t want to; but I have to face these problems. Im praying about it right now!
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I have support for my general recovery. I haven't been to therapists in a long time; However; from the trails of everyday life and dealing with stalkers; Ive been suicidal for the last several months; and I havent known how to fix any of this yet!

by **OMNICELL** on Mon Jul 14, 2025 10:19 am

The new message from God concerning women!
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Its time to move on…
Move on from where Im at concerning women; Time to go to new ponds.. new lakes to fish for what I want…
The women Im around don’t like me. Im not liked by any of them… Its time to move on… I wont find what Im looking for within these groups of people.
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Ill have to go out into the world working with God to find the tribe of women that might be interested in me.
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I want to be around people that will miss me if they don’t see me or; or actually want to spend time with me because its of interest to them; or excitement. Meaning; they are actually interested in me…
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Im not liked by the people Im around; the groups of people Im in; no women like me. Im not liked by them. They show no respect of any kind or interest; nothing… Its time to leave.
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THE GOALS:
A Network of chosen friends for the purpose of support for my dating developmental interests under God. Im working with God to pic people I can call and talk with as I go through this process to find the right type of people for my future relationships..
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Everything is under Gods care…
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Ill have a new group of people for support and Ill be moving outward in my views of direction concerning what Im looking for…
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Im trusting God; God is getting me out of the places ive been habitating in the recovery process; for I am finding no one in these places to date; its actually dangerous; Ive been “ played” and fooled so many times; conned; lied to; or “ let on”. Its given me the conclusion; none of these people want me around; Im not liked by these women… non of them; for any reason; I have no future with those people. These people don’t like me…
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God created scenarios for me to see the truth; I have and Im moving on.
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I do not know where Im moving on to; But God has brought some ideas into my mind; ideas of more introverted educated women; bashful women; women interested in the Arts and Sciences at high levels..
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Its unfortunate one cannot attract everyone. But Im not. The people Im around right now see no value in my internal self; nothing. And I think Even God is alarmed at it; I certainly am.
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To hate someone for no reason or cause as I am being; it has a bad ring to it. Its not some place I want to visit or habitat; Ive tried; God is moving me on…
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Im done with these people; Ive had enough; I cant imagine anyone with any decency having anything to do with these people… Ive awakened because of God; I have plans with God to meet other people from other walks of like…
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These people right now in the places I visit have no appreciation for me. I wont be missed and Im not liked.
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I am waking up to my own humanity again.
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What ever God has chosen for me; is certainly not in these places Im at now!
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So…
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NOTE:
Ive never had a Girlfriend; ever!
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I never developed. I had a girl I liked in the second grade; I took her to the dog show.. And that is the last of it.
Im an old man now. Nowhere did anything dealing with the opposite sex get developed; it never has been. I was never noticed and just ignored by any group of hopeful prospective type people; I was never seen; just ghosted or ignored completely.
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Now; God is helping me develop in this area; its all under God and I must listen and learn from God for my directions and support.

by **OMNICELL** on Mon Jul 14, 2025 2:15 am

Im Building a network of people support for help, recovery, and communication for my dating development interests…( Support) a large network. Ill keep an extra book for it. And pray God gets me to the right people; Amen.
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The goals to start with.
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Find a group of people with my same values… Getting inline with that under God; that is the first task.
I know there is a tribe of people out there that respect me; I just know it. Because of their values; they are happy to see me and have me around; they value me; look up to me; respect me. They care if they don’t ever see me again. The value the time spent together with me. They miss me and think about me.
They want to see me when I get up in the morning because they love spending time with me.
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Ive spent my time chasing women who didn’t care if they ever saw me again; I meant nothing to them; And that simply does not make any sense; their must be something better out here God has set up for me.
I have to find decent people… That to start with is the number one goal… And Im creating a network of people I can call; and text if I need help or support or need to talk and advice and learn how to work things out; work through things. Amen.
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by **OMNICELL** on Sun Jul 13, 2025 6:46 pm

In order to attract a wife; I have to be husband material…
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Im in that process now!

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