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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Fri Aug 29, 2025 11:04 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Social; Flirting with women; Officially has began |
Social; Flirting with women; Officially has began . This is a very important aspect of life right now. Im studying a dating coach on youtube; a very good one; Basically its about talking to women… creating attraction; once created; creating dates; and from there; girlfriends. And their it is; to start with… . And all of this brings me closer to women. And thus; women tribe. . Im using the laws of attraction on this relationship dating stuff; for this is one of my goals; relationships. This means; I have to imagine I come into a realm of vast women; and then I meet women and be within women tribe and women nation; thus women all around me; for me to flirt with and date... and talk to and be friends with and go do stuff with... . I know what I want; I want my life back; I want the ability to date again; I want girlfriends; I want to create sexual tension in women... Because; in addition to a girlfriend; this would mean my social life is back… . . So; Writing about women and meeting them; and the kind of women I want to associate with. . I am studying how to talk to women until I become a master; Im stuying some sites on how to be social with women; flirting with women; meeting women; watching this turns to dating… and from their; I can take it from there… Girlfriends… and so fourth; its means Im back in with society again. . So; I have to imagine Im talking to someone and they want me and Im attractive to them.. and they naturally want me. . FLIRTING; This is the power… And its been happening; Im starting to take the suggestions of the dating coaches and practice flirting; Im using their techniques for talking; for flirting and creating tension; Sexual tension; romantic tension. . Im now officially practicing… I did this today… Im learning; its not that easy; not at first; I have allot to practice; However; its already having its effect. Im losing fear of women very quickly; Why? Because I desire it; Im desporate for it; to get better and out of the black well I crawled from... . Im losing my fear of women because very quickly and suddenly I remember Used to talk to them and have success with them to a point; I was very young; but it did happen. . . and am practicing how to talk to them; lots of interactions; give n take; this Im interested in... . . lots of flirting practice; Suddenly I remember; Now; instead of looking at women with no confidence; I can simply sit by them and practice different forms of flirting and talking and interacting and practicing; and this has taken the edge off… . . FLIRTING AND CONVERSATION PRACTICE WITH WOMEN; . This will be hard for awhile; Im not balanced at it; Some times I make it sound like Im picking on a girl; next; it sounds like Im practicing social on a girl. At other times Im acting… and this can be seen; And I am; all of the above and much more; if Im going to become good at flirting and charming and talking to women; and that is the goal here. This is what My whole perpuse concerning women Is turning to… This is where its headed… . However; there is much much more to it… . GRIEF>>> . So; allot of the pain and problem is grief… Grief from a past I remember that will never show up ever again; its all in memories; and as I move forward all of those hopes n dreams die with that past life; Its like watching the Titanic in a movie; and realizing Im on that boat. I can see myself on the boat; all my hopes n dreams; and suddenly in a state of panic; I can see myself helpless and scared; Im going down the with boat; On one side of the scream are visual representations of my dreams and life n goals; On the other side is a video of me panicking as I go down with the ship; And as I watch the end come; I see myself drawn and slip away; never to return; and with it; all the dreams and goals of that past age; all vanish within the haze of reality… . . ... [ Continued ] |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Thu Aug 28, 2025 5:37 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Ill have to get good |
Ill have to get good at what Dan Bacon has created for men for dating… . Im at this period where; under God; I go talk to people… This has to do with meaningful relationships; Dating; romance; girlfriend and so forth… This is an area of my life that was stuck or is stuck… . Im learning; allot of the problem is about how I talk to people; So; I have to take responsibility for how I talk to people; how I talk to women concerning interaction; creating attraction and getting to know people; getting to know women and the tribe of women God is slowly bringing me into; into a world of women… And their it is… Its uncomfortable; its not the way I wanted it; I wanted a wife when very young and I wanted independence; it never happened… Here I am now; I have allot to learn… . This is an uncomfortable situation; Ill be talking to God all the time to get close to women in general in a social sense… It means Im back out into the real world again. Im timid and introverted. I have to learn how to trust again out in the real world. I must take all things to God before I do anything. The goal is to align with God first on all subjects. Each interest; I must talk to God and give way to God first… . God has me learning that I must go out socially on a plan and learn how to be successful. I must learn how to become successful with women; learning how to talk to women in a way that creates a sense of tension and excitement. Interesting and charming; that is my goal…. God will help me… Amen . Gain; Most important is this; Im at this place of getting a plan and going out among the people… This is not easy for me… not at all; it triggers all my dissociative disorder and defenses… However; what Im looking for is out in the middle of America. . I have many skills to learn…. I need confidence… Ill work on all fronts for this goal to be a success….. . Not of this is easy. But I am coming back to being a useful member of society at some level… Meaning; Sanity is returning for me a bit. Its not perfect… . Im getting really triggered writing this!@ . . Fear and a big big gap between where Im at and being conferrable around women again… Im at this place… Working with God; |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Wed Aug 27, 2025 4:53 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Confidence is what its about now |
Confidence is what its about now; aligned with the universe in the real world… That means I accept the real world as is because thats where Ill be working on things; In this case; its with women and relationship; and dating and romance and….. And so on; girlfriends….. and……… Thats the goal…. . . . Support helping me with small steps of courage leading toward my main goal in the center of society… . Getting help to cross over the line into new territory Ive never been; This is uncomfortable. When brought back to my starting place; I have new experiences from crossing the line; this creates confidence. Confidence is necessary for survival on earth; it helps me get what I want in life on all fronts.. . . WHERE AM I AT NOW… . Im grateful to get another chance in reality. My goals are in reality. . How is my mind; my brain; disabled; I have many many problems. However; I have a good attitude… and enthusiasm. . I don’t know what the end outcome will be like… I have goals and I write stories and imagine what the end result will be as if Im already living it. The goal is to believe first then Ill see it! . A gap resides where Im at and where I want to be; but Im fairly strait inline with the outside world. Now; I learn how to go down a strait line; meeting the new people I need to meet that lead me to the people Im interested in talking with and spending time with…. . Non of this is easy and I don’t know what the outcomes will be… . My mind is very schizoid. Im very dissociative and AVPD… and agoraphobic… Depressive… . Also; a smashed in personality; weak’nd; I seem to have fairly positive hope concerning what Im doing. Ill be first going through the Gap that connects me back to society in general; at a stronger deeper level… And once this tether line is strengthened; Ill be meeting new people face to face; to start with. . I met someone tonight at a meeting; face to face; handshake to handshake; it freaked me out to be up so close to someone. I could hardly take it; PTSD and AVPD; I wanted to avoid; I had no strength to be up in someones face; face to face… However; I did manage to do it… . So; Im learning once again how to live in reality and with Gods help; go after my goals. Amen. . So; |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Tue Aug 26, 2025 1:54 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | I have no self esteem with women |
Helpers developing with women; Stories please help me God; Amen… . . Note; I have no self esteem with women; I feel very bad about myself; no self worth; cannot stand up to them; when they get close; I look down at the ground… in shame… I cant look up at them; like I don’t feel very worthy around them; I don’t feel worth anything at all around them. Im finding I cant look at them when close up; nothing. Today Ive experienced this several times up close with women; In some cases; I want to blame the women; But its simply that their faces are up close to me… and I look down bashfully. No self worth; no confidence; no self esteem. No self. . However; I am getting real feedback. . Im assuming this is about my mother. So. As I get closer to women; Im learning much about myself.. |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Mon Aug 25, 2025 6:04 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Helpers development with women |
Goals girlfriend car house money vacation . God is helping me gain confidence in all of these areas.. >Amen. . . I have to work with God and ask God for the helpers that will help me go from grade school maturity and development level; to adolescence level to teen level and into young adult level… . All of this has to be redone. . Dissociative disorder is the problem… So; its like being in a war; I have a whole line of resistance to protect me from the outside world within myself; a disability; And I want enough of it down to have a girlfriend. Its so embarrassing. Its not just creating intimacy; I cant create it with an actual person; only deep within me and my imagination. However; the goal is to take that intimacy; and learn how to apply it out in the real world; this will be done through real world practice with others; practicing these things enough until I am good at it and confident at it. . In a sense; Im learning from Ground up how to interact with women… ( It just freaks me out to say it). This triggers sexual abuse… it triggers many forms of PTSD.. or Long term CPTSD… Getting to close to the world is like being in a war with it… it triggers war…. It triggers death for me… Meaning; its like being in a war zone…. . Other problems; . 1. I need help; God to send others to help train me; so I can gain real world experience interacting at basic levels with women again. We are talking about; Im starting out at the emotional developmental age of child and working through to adolesence and then teen years and then young adult to adult… And their it is… . Its all that training from the beginning; maybe even from age 3 through 4 n 5, 6 n 7 on up. Im missing everything concerning women. . Ive got to be retrained with basics and experience. Ill pray for these people and what I need. Ill imagine getting the help and imagine what that help and training looks like and believe its going to happen for me… Imagining every bit down the pike; all of it. . I am getting triggered with PTSD from those time periods of sexual abuse; my mind slams back into that; so; I must start over from the beginning and create a whole new set of realities for me without the sexual abuse; Bi passing all of it until practicing success. Amen. . My mind is dissociating all over the place while writing this; Amen. . Ive got to start slow… I mean really slowly allowing any of this in; slowly; Working with God for this to happen; people n places and things; Amen… Please God be with me Amen. . This includes verbal with women; learning to tell a women who I am; what Im struggling with; what my goal is and asking for help.. . |
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