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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sun May 11, 2025 7:55 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Drum stuff; This is the next level of the things Im working on |
Drum stuff; This is the next level of the things Im working on; Getting back my drumming is the next step… . Strangely but maybe not; I understand concerning my heart. That does not mean I have a girlfriend. But My heart seems to be aligned and Ive learned; like in the last few hours since the last meeting not to dissociate or that I have to; I could see the deep deep light from the universe; God Jesus; Holy spirit; align within the center of me And hold there… And I did… and it did… . And so I get it; I am to hold there; and with that; that attracts at that frequency; So; My heart is back… . . Drumming; This is the next step; It requires that I see myself in a whole new situation; a whole new place. So; I have to see myself in a whole other quantum leap. A whole other living situation. I have to work with the universe and connect to that new place; its mandatory that I get this part of things figured out. This means I stop being a victim. . A women came into the meetings yesterday; I had’nt seen her for many years; she said she remembered me because I was working on drumming then as I was now; she remembered me talking about drumming. . I shocked me because it kind of took the value of today out of what I was talking about. I was making strides in drumming right now; a bit more committed then before. She wouldnt have know this. . What was important? . Many years ago when I was talking about drumming; I was talking about everything being blocked; about 10 things; including drumming; creating and writing music; actually performing a piece of music in the public; singing; learning to memorize a song. Playing music with others… Creating Art work and putting it into a gallery setting of some kind… Having any kind of defined Purpose in life and Art… And many other things… . Since then Ive had a renewed interest in drumming. So; she is hearing about drumming again… . However; what she doesn’t know… . These things have been accomplished. . 1. Art creation; the ability; that means finished art and the ability to create it anytime I want…. 2. Music creation; the ability to create it any time I want… and finish a piece. 3. Putting a story with words music on a video channel on youtube… \ 4. Learning to memorize a song… 5. Art History and Purpose… meaning; I have Purpose; its starts with Art History… 6. Singing in public; and or playing an instrument in public with confidence loudly 7. Playing music with others; I play guitar with another guy; we have practiced and Im singing while doing so…. At his place; that means Ive left my apartment for new surroundings… . These are a few of them… However; One of the main areas or losses of my last life is drumming. This will require a drum room to practice in. And or; playing anywhere I can to practice and ending up playing live.. and appreciating it. This also requires a journey; a drum journey under God… That means drum pathways; starting from nothing. I call upon the universe for help to unlock pathways and opportunities for me to become drum self actualized. Ultimately it means a practice space to play drums… . A practice space to play drums. . This might be the biggest challenge Ive ever had… I can feel the fear and the unknown. I have to believe. Thats the first part of the work. Next; is getting rid of all doubt. I have to imagine Im in a practice room looking out the windows and seeing the world go by. With that feeling like Im already there. Im learning to assume Im already there… and that is the biggest hardest part… . But have to do it and learn it. If I want something new… and I do… I want something better for myself. I want my freedom back… . Under God; this is the next challenge or goal. This will take tremendous amounts of work… . . Other challenges; Im old; shoulders have tendentious; when that flairs up; no go; no drumming. So... [ Continued ] |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sun May 11, 2025 5:33 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | My heart has completed a journey; I get it… |
My heart has completed a journey; I get it… . Im trying not to dissociate my heart; Ive been able to stay awake to experience the full range of my heart aligned with the universe and not dissociate; so I get it… its aligned; Now what… . Im seeing them from a different perspective… This unlocking process allows me to love again; a women. Who what where when why; I don’t know. Ive seen a few women I know of; I find them adorable; I could be with one of them. But God would have to pick them out or make things happen. . I understand from the past; if I sweep them off their feet; they’r mine. I get it… . I don’t know if Im ready for that; that seems to much to me; to much reality right now; we will see… but that is; only if the universe has picked them will I know. . . OK; Well; if the inside of me is getting aligned. Now; the outside has to get aligned and that means money and things; things like drum rooms and cars n houses and such… . We will see; that is the next big step; dealing with all of that. Learning to trust the process so I can believe… |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sat May 10, 2025 11:21 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | I want a Drum Room |
I want a Drum Room I live in State Housing; I cannot drum or set up a Drum set in state Housing apartments; Electronic Drums kits are a joke concerning noise; They make just as much striking noise; almost; as a real acoustic set; as far as a neighbor is concerned. . So; . I looked into Storage units; I was honest with them; Some of the managers were business like and some where nice; But in 2025 They do no let people linger around the storage property; one is only suppose to store there stuff and then get out… They are not suppose to hang out there for any reason. So; Storage units are out. . Im now onto the next phase. Im using laws of attraction and the Book; Think and Grow rich to develop into someone who attracts a shed or room of some kind I can drum in. . How do I feel about it; The first most important part is to believe; I must learn to believe Ive already got that new Drum room. Also; No doubts. I can have no doubts about it. And I can learn to do this through success based thinking techniques. . I am to assume Ive got that Drum even; Even tho I have no idea HOW this will happen; That is up to the universe. . I will set forth on paper; pathways from the universe leading to a drum room… and imagine Im walking through new scenarios to get there; All in my imagination. When it becomes real in my imagination; it will be time for it to be real in the real world… . I will start to attract this drum room. . Where am I at right now. Im in the believing and most importantly; Breaking through the Doubting stage. That is where Im at… Im working on the doubting part of things; learning how to flesh out doubting aspect in my thinking process and learn to believe Ive already Got it. Thats what Im working on now. Its a bit of a stretch for me. All of this; Ive got Hit points. Meaning anchor points all along the number line from start to finish. From where I start from the beginning; the first steps toward a Drum room. I start this exercise and finish it completely; I see myself in this drum room…………. . Here is the key; I am the one doing the work to believe; Im working with God co creating my new future; it takes what ever it takes; its that simple. I have to earn my way and learn to believe even when I receive a thousand phone calls with a NO Answer; when I call if anyone has a room I can have or rent or buy or what ever; for playing drums within. . I may have to talk to God about buying a house; when I have no idea how that can happen. Or maybe Ill be renting a room at an old building with thick walls; I don’t know. Ill have to find out. Ill have to work with God to find out what happens; the pathways… . No one owes me anything; Its life on lifes terms. And I have to learn that; And that Ill be OK. Ill learn how to go out and Hustle for myself. Thats what so scary; That part of my life was shut down by sexual abusers.. and so forth. So; Ill be open up that part of myself; Also; this was a time period of False friends appearing real; when in reality I had no friends; no one… Im learning… I have allot of fatigue to go through. Allot of challenges and learning… if I want a Drum Room. Ill have to learn to see it first in my imagination and work toward it becoming a reality… . Ill be going out there in the real world and attempting to make it so. This will be the first time Ive done that with just about any concept; To fight for what I believe in or want; out in the real world. . . Amen. . Ill have to do the work to get it! |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sat May 10, 2025 10:43 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Its the new me as I am… |
I have allot of goals. As I extend back into society again; Im kind of at the very very beginning of a base; is it a real base; well; sorta;…. A Base within the beginning of society. . Its like cellophane jell; The Wall. Im going from the past to No-mans-land up to New-land; Im now on that New-land about 100 feet; and then I hit this wall of clear transparent Jello. Im in the middle of it slowly progressing through this 15 foot thick wall of clear Jell. I went from the old me to the new me. From the new me Im on new land now; slowly making my way through the Jell wall… This means; Im being transformed from the past to the present new interactive world Ill be crafting into… No matter where go when I open up into this new vista; These new Areas are not connected to the past; they start at the other side of the Jell wall; as I will be. . What does this mean? It means I level up when I come out of the Jell wall. It means Im ready.. Ive gotten up to speed into a new world. . Does this mean Im completely ready; Im beat up from the street up. But; I am officially on the other side. Or; Im on this side; this new side of the wall. This is society. Im on the side of society. That means Im on the edge of society… But Im in society; And from there Im like much of me has no confidence. Im beat up from the street up. Half of me has no confidence… most of me has no confidence. . Much of me has nothing going on concerning outside society. Nothing to do with society; not yet… . So; Now I slowly work with God to accept the past is gone and slowly move in ward toward society. Into society. . Im now beyond that gate; Im on the other side of that gate. What awaits me; Well; all my goals within society and how I work with God to go after them. Thats where Im at now! . Its the new me as I am… . . |
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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Tue May 06, 2025 12:45 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | The real faith and struggle begins.Working with a higher power |
Its virtually impossible to create anything in the apartments Im in. I cant even write. Meaning; using computer keyboard. Because of he clicking sounds that are coming from the keyboard. Im not sure what to do about it. I don’t know… . Ive called the landlord. No complaints so far. But that not just the problem. Im an intelligent person; I don’t want to go through this on a daily basis. If I open the window; its that much worse. The keyboard is heard even more.. . The goal I have is to be numerous types of artist. Meaning; Drummer; writer, computer musician; Artist. Even the click sounds of guitar bother people above me… This is when muffled. Is it their fault; No! . So; I turn to God. Im on housing and Im not sure what to do… Or where to go. I don’t know… . I almost think the universe does not want me to play or perform any artist stuff; nothing! . Im seriously not sure what to do here. Non of this is making any sense for me. . Im not sure where God wants me or doing what. . Im mean; it seems to me like Im in some kind of foreign country. I cant do anything in my own country; its like being in a prison cell. . . . Goal; First; its not the other people in the building. I mean. Its the building; Its not even made for someone to use any kind of computer keyboard. Im on housing. What do I do… Not write.. Not play and sing guitar; not drum… No piano. Its the pounding from the keyboard or the pick running across the strings; especially the lower ones… Drumming is obvious. . However; where does this leave me. I feel like this is telling me to stop all creative endeavors; let them go; Stop imagining Im going to get a drum room so I can drum; or a place to play acoustic guitar and sing; Just stop; get another hobby. Or typing and creative writing; get another hobby… . It was never my intent to cause problem for the person above me or next to me; I just don’t know what to do…. . The idea is; I imagine Im in a new place or building or home and Im creating in it. And it will appear; the opportunity. Im suppose to take action; I don’t know what action;. Im not getting any signals. Nothing.. . I don’t know what direction. . Im sick of this; concerning housing; its been this way all my life… Nothingness. No way to create; but Im a creative person. Suicide or alcohol was my choice before living in this society. . I don’t have any answers for solutions for a practice room. Im an old man. And I don’t want to work with God to wait 15 years before I get a practice room It just keeps telling me that the universe is telling me to STOP. I don’t get this. I like creating; Im stopped on all fronts… I just wish I know the answers; I can turn to my inner bing and ask and I have but I get no answers on any fronts in front of me. . Im at a real cross roads. What Id like is an answer from The universe on what to do… what direction to God. . One possibility is a more dedicated attitude. Realizing I can do nothing about this apartment I live in; Moving to another one solves nothing. I guess. Ive been through this before; over n over n over… . Insane all of this. . Whats really got me bugged is; Does the universe want me to CREATE or not! This is insane… insanity. . I wait upon God for my requests. I havent given up; The problem is; I mean; No drumming means; all things future drumming are over. If I cant drum. Creating music stops. I mean; what does this mean… Art work can continue; but its not the same if the rest of me cant mature… . Im trying to develop and mature. Im trying wondering when God is going to save me here. I feel so stuck… I don’t know the direction. . Ive got prayers that help. . Im right in the middle of this stuff… . I don’t know what to do… . . I wait upon God; . Here is a prayer I use from God. From one of my groups. Its the 4ths step prayer… . I a... [ Continued ] |
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