I read a post on a CPTSD site I think it was CPTSD or BPD or.... Anyway; the person couldn't cope with life. And the way it was written; it was so down to earth and unassuming.. I felt at home and I felt peace because the way the person wrote it; they were a nice normal sweet person.. Regular person... Nice person. And now I get it; if I could spend my life with nice people like that; I would be fine... I want to be around nice people; thats whats missing; nice people. Okey; so I kind of know what I want... I know the kind of people I want around me and the kind I dont. Ive been around horrible monsters; horrible people and I want to be around nice people. Im around horrible people so I can grow and change... I mean; they are in the recovery process; many of them.. All depends on the types of meetings; anyway.
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Im starting to get it; I know the kind of kind people I want to relate with; sensitive kind type of people; but where are they; I will have to pray to God about it; to meet them; and to meet women just like them; nice down to earth women... nice people; sensitive. Ill pray about meeting sweet people like this. I know the kinds; I dont want to be around anyone else; no one else gets me it seems; no one...
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I could write more. Im starting to get it; the kind of quality people I want to associate with.. Nice people; gentle down to earth people. No others.. nice people; Im getting their; because Ill have to become those people... and let go of the other people; thats what Im hoping for.. So I can be around decent people and let go of the others... Before I can let go of the others I have to find or be introduced to nice people. When was young I thought I was around nice people; iw as wrong... I was around horrible monsters and the same thing happened in the meetings Im in; I met women that liked me at first; but they turned out to be horrible monsters.... And I reeled from them and ran away and never returned and I wont ever again; Im looking for nice people; and Ill have to pray about finding them; my people.