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Im seeing psychopaths when I see women!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Tue Jul 03, 2018 8:46 pm

God help me; Im seeing psychopath when I see women! ITs bad enough that this has destroyed my social like, love life, relationship life; worse, it means Im still being controlled by my mother!
Im as hard as a rock in this area! When I see women; I see my mother! it never lets up! women finally go away and go out with someone else; they give up on me; my attitude is; fine; " I then fill the blank with cuss words"; and their gone! I blame them; but something is wrong! I would never let them get near me! of course, they never tried to get any closer to me even tho I had problems!
I just saw a pic with 4 women that liked me! Or three and one I could have slept with and wanted to!
I never did anything; When they first meet me; they like me; 2 weeks later, someone has warned them about me; to stay away or that Im some kind of creep! their attitude about me changes; at that moment; Im done with them; I see their change of attitude! However, some of them still like me!
I never allow them to get close because they will not do the one thing I demand; I demand they take a subordinate roll of some kind; get humble when they deal with me! We are not equal! Im a man she is a women; she has her role or place and I identity and I have mine; I dont want my boundaries touched; or my space! Prove it first; that you will get inline with the me and the universe first!
However, I see pics of women that i could have gone out with and Im making them out to be monsters; in reality, they have low self esteem and self worth and yet, I dont try to go out with them; like I dont like them! Instead I would say; Im 2 late; now; I appreciate them more! but now; they are gone!
Im hoping source energy of the universe brings me women that are ready for me now; not in 2 years!
I know that thieir are millions of soulmates in the world! so, its time to move on; Im concerned about why I dont trust these women; maybe their just shallow and Im not trusting that shallow part of them! I know theirs goodness in them; I can see it! but I wont let them get near me!
Instead of fighting about it; I will ask the universe to bring me women I can get near and feel conferrable with! move on! I would say this is a good lesson in learning to attract new people!
I get this sinking feeling I should have done something; that these girls cant be that bad; the way Im making them out to be! Im holding some kind of hatred or resentment! Im mad!
Im mad because they wont take any responsibility and help me! IF they dont want to help me; I dont want them anywhere near me; their not worth my time! So; I would say that they are OK women as is; but, not datable because they lack certain basic principles I live by or want in women! I would say they are nice women! They have all the traits of nice women, but they dont have the traits im looking for in a relationship or their bidding that they do; and Im not chasing that out of them; thats not honest to hide it in the first place; Im not going their! Im running away as fast as possible! They all have boyfriends and as quick as they want! men like them! I dont think they have the depth to underhand me or; they want to get married and are not interested in a complicated guy like me! Its not worth it; all they want is a ring on their fingers from some jock that pays the bills and their set! and Im not that person; nor Im I that kind of person! Im not!
Whats troubling me; to look back at this picture and realized I wanted someone of them and never went for it! Why didnt I really not go for it! I didnt think I was worthy!
And I dont really know they wanted me; I would not know until I asked!

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