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Author: | OMNICELL [ Thu Oct 11, 2018 8:55 am ] |
Blog Subject: | Im interested in a wife! |
Its an interesting thing when a man says he wants a wife! This is a good sign and a sign of recovery! For wanting a wife means one thing; unconditional love! . Unconditional love; is it possible! . With all the hate Ive been through; is it possible to love anything! . Im working on something; a direction; unconditional love toward a women; specifically; who ever will be my wife! This is hard! not easy! its literally hard! . Im working with the universe for a wife! She's looking for me; Im looking for her! . Unconditional love is an act of bravery! Im not sure I have bravery; Im a coward! So; things are exceptionally hard for me! . The idea is to want to live and live life and have unconditional love for my wife; I remember what this was like! And I want a friend; her friendship! I kind of remember! thats what Im looking for! . Im looking for myself! Im looking to connect with myself and connect with my inner being! Im scared and mis trusting! . Im very scared' it will take courage! ITs takes courage to love; the love has to emanate from me! its not something I get from others; its a force within me and it flies out of me! and I am a ball of enthusiasm when around others; Ive been their before, a long time ago! . Ive learned a few things since the last time I loved; don't tell a soul about it! Just take care of business and work with the universe! . . I know the direction; The support come from 12 step meetings but very few people! . Im basically alone! so; I have to work with the universe on every front! . Hatred and anger and resentment and judgment of others; This has to go; all of it! it can go; its lingering in me; but has no reason to be their! Ive worked on anger and resentment! A new life is abounding for me; I must get over the old one and the old thoughts and memories! the horror of long term attainment of evil! meaning; I was forced into evil! now; Im wanting to let go of the defense's that sustained my life to fight against it! I fought the good fight and I was destroyed! Now; I would like to live! I won the fight; now its time to let go of it and move on; I want a wife! . So; working toward getting a wife; I cant be a fake! I have to come back to life and have personality! This is going to be hard! I have to love life! its possible! it starts in my heart and my thoughts! its possible with much work! |
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