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Finding my voice
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 4:47 pm
Three important conversations with women
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 1:39 am
I letting socioapths attack me again; abuse me; feel demoralized
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 11:23 am
Mellowing; and idea of exploring the entrances to the gap...
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 1:20 am
A house and a backyard and 4 walls and a hobby
   Sun Aug 18, 2019 1:09 am
moving into know mans land (positive); and then through
   Fri Aug 16, 2019 9:41 pm
The Gap
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 8:37 pm
Teenage years
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 2:25 am
finding and painting rocks
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 5:14 pm
Expressing my feelings
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:26 pm
I know Ive never met any women to date ever....
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 11:02 am
Being alone all of my life with out women or a relationship
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:16 am
The wright brothers created plaines; Im creating my new life
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 8:41 am
A new era is starting; But Ive got problems
   Mon Aug 12, 2019 12:19 pm
Signs of the end is here; and a new era starting
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:13 pm
Trapped between 2 worlds
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 3:23 pm
Things are getting better; Im still fat; I got a problem
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 11:38 pm
Women have defeated me? and I feel deated? #1
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 6:45 am
Plans from the universe; they have cometh
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:39 pm
breaking things and coming together
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:44 am
What am I thinking about
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:16 am
That breaking point
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 8:45 pm
Needing my mothers permission
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:47 pm
And another day
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:03 pm
Im so right in the middle of the promises
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:35 pm
whats missing with music; live playing
   Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:22 pm
Women and John Denver
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 11:33 pm
Bulling
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:33 am
art images coming back and other things; taking action
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 8:35 pm
I wasn't suppose to break the my first girls heart....
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 12:47 pm
Take my mother out of the picture; what do I get.
   Fri Aug 02, 2019 11:47 pm
Where am at right now.
   Thu Aug 01, 2019 11:30 am

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Im interested in a wife!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Thu Oct 11, 2018 8:55 am

Its an interesting thing when a man says he wants a wife! This is a good sign and a sign of recovery! For wanting a wife means one thing; unconditional love!
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Unconditional love; is it possible!
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With all the hate Ive been through; is it possible to love anything!
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Im working on something; a direction; unconditional love toward a women; specifically; who ever will be my wife! This is hard! not easy! its literally hard!
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Im working with the universe for a wife! She's looking for me; Im looking for her!
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Unconditional love is an act of bravery! Im not sure I have bravery; Im a coward! So; things are exceptionally hard for me!
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The idea is to want to live and live life and have unconditional love for my wife; I remember what this was like! And I want a friend; her friendship! I kind of remember! thats what Im looking for!
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Im looking for myself! Im looking to connect with myself and connect with my inner being! Im scared and mis trusting!
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Im very scared' it will take courage! ITs takes courage to love; the love has to emanate from me! its not something I get from others; its a force within me and it flies out of me! and I am a ball of enthusiasm when around others; Ive been their before, a long time ago!
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Ive learned a few things since the last time I loved; don't tell a soul about it! Just take care of business and work with the universe!
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I know the direction; The support come from 12 step meetings but very few people!
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Im basically alone! so; I have to work with the universe on every front!
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Hatred and anger and resentment and judgment of others; This has to go; all of it! it can go; its lingering in me; but has no reason to be their! Ive worked on anger and resentment! A new life is abounding for me; I must get over the old one and the old thoughts and memories! the horror of long term attainment of evil! meaning; I was forced into evil! now; Im wanting to let go of the defense's that sustained my life to fight against it! I fought the good fight and I was destroyed! Now; I would like to live! I won the fight; now its time to let go of it and move on; I want a wife!
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So; working toward getting a wife; I cant be a fake! I have to come back to life and have personality! This is going to be hard! I have to love life! its possible! it starts in my heart and my thoughts! its possible with much work!

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