Ive got to have a women that is willing to stand in front of me; look at me and tell me she likes me and I matter to her! matter enough that she doesn't want to loose me! She has to humble herself and take a chance; looks aren't enough!
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Ive had women like me; but they wont back it up! I guess Im no worth it to them; so; I walk! I walk away and keep on walking!
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I cant or wont be with a women when I dont know if she is not worth my time! Ive got to have proof ;something to work with; anything!
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I have to know something about her to make it worth my time not to lose her; to want to be with her; to fight for her! to fight to keep her because I actually want her!
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If I had a women that was willing to stay with me and really didnt want to loose me; really felt it and stood in front of me and explained it to me; she really liked me; liked me over others; and she was suppose to be with me and claimed it and would show me something to work with; Im not looking for anyone else! thats all I want! For her to be pretty to me is not enough; it goes nowhere.
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The problem is; where is she?; Ive been working with the universe for a long time! Im still waiting!
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My mental condition is clearing up enough to think strait again! Something like that; my mind is a beat up carnival show; but Im getting their; getting close to happiness; or what could create happiness!
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I saw this photo of 4 women I know! non of them would humble themselves in front of me; non of them! at least 3 liked me; the third I wanted to sleep with and could have! not one of them humbled themselves! nothing! I didnt mean enough to any of them to simply stand in front of me and tell me how they felt! Ive got to know something about the persons character to work with! anything! Something; give me something; something to grab on to! Non of them would humble them selves; I have absolutely no interest in any of them; nothing! I wrote them all off!
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So; where is she going to come from!
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I have my bedroom walls stuffed with Asian women pics; because I did a soulmate search 4 years ago! Im ready to take them down; they make no sense anymore~
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If a women is not worth fighting for; she's a waist of my time!
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I undersand that Ive been in my situation slowly healing and Im grateful for that; However, when it comes to women; Im frustrated! No one is worth my time because no one will prove they are worth my time! They dont seem to care enough to impress me with anything! I guess Im not worth it for them; so, I got to move on!
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So, Im grateful to know what I know; now; I have to work with source energy to bring her to me; allow me to spy down the roads of unraveling journeys and pathways!
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She has to be worth it! She has to show me she wants to take care of me! and she doesn't want to loose me; that she really likes me! She can only do this to my face standing in front of me taking a subordinate position of humility and telling the truth. Im interested in no one else; no one!