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OMNICELL
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Finding my voice
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 4:47 pm
Three important conversations with women
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 1:39 am
I letting socioapths attack me again; abuse me; feel demoralized
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 11:23 am
Mellowing; and idea of exploring the entrances to the gap...
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 1:20 am
A house and a backyard and 4 walls and a hobby
   Sun Aug 18, 2019 1:09 am
moving into know mans land (positive); and then through
   Fri Aug 16, 2019 9:41 pm
The Gap
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 8:37 pm
Teenage years
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 2:25 am
finding and painting rocks
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 5:14 pm
Expressing my feelings
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:26 pm
I know Ive never met any women to date ever....
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 11:02 am
Being alone all of my life with out women or a relationship
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:16 am
The wright brothers created plaines; Im creating my new life
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 8:41 am
A new era is starting; But Ive got problems
   Mon Aug 12, 2019 12:19 pm
Signs of the end is here; and a new era starting
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:13 pm
Trapped between 2 worlds
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 3:23 pm
Things are getting better; Im still fat; I got a problem
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 11:38 pm
Women have defeated me? and I feel deated? #1
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 6:45 am
Plans from the universe; they have cometh
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:39 pm
breaking things and coming together
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:44 am
What am I thinking about
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:16 am
That breaking point
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 8:45 pm
Needing my mothers permission
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:47 pm
And another day
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:03 pm
Im so right in the middle of the promises
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:35 pm
whats missing with music; live playing
   Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:22 pm
Women and John Denver
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 11:33 pm
Bulling
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:33 am
art images coming back and other things; taking action
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 8:35 pm
I wasn't suppose to break the my first girls heart....
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 12:47 pm
Take my mother out of the picture; what do I get.
   Fri Aug 02, 2019 11:47 pm
Where am at right now.
   Thu Aug 01, 2019 11:30 am

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Im beginning to get iT!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Tue Jul 03, 2018 5:32 am

Ive got to have a women that is willing to stand in front of me; look at me and tell me she likes me and I matter to her! matter enough that she doesn't want to loose me! She has to humble herself and take a chance; looks aren't enough!
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Ive had women like me; but they wont back it up! I guess Im no worth it to them; so; I walk! I walk away and keep on walking!

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I cant or wont be with a women when I dont know if she is not worth my time! Ive got to have proof ;something to work with; anything!
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I have to know something about her to make it worth my time not to lose her; to want to be with her; to fight for her! to fight to keep her because I actually want her!
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If I had a women that was willing to stay with me and really didnt want to loose me; really felt it and stood in front of me and explained it to me; she really liked me; liked me over others; and she was suppose to be with me and claimed it and would show me something to work with; Im not looking for anyone else! thats all I want! For her to be pretty to me is not enough; it goes nowhere.
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The problem is; where is she?; Ive been working with the universe for a long time! Im still waiting!
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My mental condition is clearing up enough to think strait again! Something like that; my mind is a beat up carnival show; but Im getting their; getting close to happiness; or what could create happiness!
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I saw this photo of 4 women I know! non of them would humble themselves in front of me; non of them! at least 3 liked me; the third I wanted to sleep with and could have! not one of them humbled themselves! nothing! I didnt mean enough to any of them to simply stand in front of me and tell me how they felt! Ive got to know something about the persons character to work with! anything! Something; give me something; something to grab on to! Non of them would humble them selves; I have absolutely no interest in any of them; nothing! I wrote them all off!
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So; where is she going to come from!
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I have my bedroom walls stuffed with Asian women pics; because I did a soulmate search 4 years ago! Im ready to take them down; they make no sense anymore~
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If a women is not worth fighting for; she's a waist of my time!
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I undersand that Ive been in my situation slowly healing and Im grateful for that; However, when it comes to women; Im frustrated! No one is worth my time because no one will prove they are worth my time! They dont seem to care enough to impress me with anything! I guess Im not worth it for them; so, I got to move on!

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So, Im grateful to know what I know; now; I have to work with source energy to bring her to me; allow me to spy down the roads of unraveling journeys and pathways!
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She has to be worth it! She has to show me she wants to take care of me! and she doesn't want to loose me; that she really likes me! She can only do this to my face standing in front of me taking a subordinate position of humility and telling the truth. Im interested in no one else; no one!

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