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I have a problem trusting women

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Thu Dec 06, 2018 5:29 pm

I have an authentic problem trusting women! a real fear; because they dont seem to care who I am as a human being! their not safe for human beings to be around! They dont prove themselves to anyone; its freaky and uncanny!
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I have to look at what Im trying to attract!
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I dont like the idea of needing or wanting women! but at the same time; Im suppose to need and want women; In a normal world; theirs nothing wrong with this; its healthy!
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I dont like deceptive people! I want to know who Im dealing with!
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Im trying to get back to a place within myself that will be at the same energy level of the women I want to deal with!
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Its hard; I have no money! This is horrible for me; for my reputation or how I feel about myself! I have to work with the universe to bring the right people around me! I hate this!
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I think; I hate the idea that money or no money; its not enough excuse for not having a women in my life! i either want one in my life or I dont!
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Ive not wanted one in my life; Im scared to death to get the wrong one or go after someone and have them laugh at me because I was picking the wrong person!
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I might have to attempt to pick a few women that end up the wrong ones until I get the right ones!
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Many women are deceptive! Or; many people are deceptive! and I have to ask several out until I find the right people! I might be way out of reality when it comes to women!
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I dont like opening myself up to the wrong people! I hate it! I just want people to trust; decent people!
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I want to go out with the right people!
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So; I will be in the thick of it! and keep going because thats my social plan! and this is part of the problem; I have to see this as; I want a relationship and I have to decide thats what I want and go after it! stick to it!
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Im offended that I have to go after it! be this open and outgoing! It seems horrible and wrong! I want to hide; I hate this; is their no other way then to be open; I hate this open concept! thats whats driving me crazy! I feel crazy in this area! crazy!
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AVPD!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
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