I don't feel like writing a blog on this site today!
Im still starving and broken and weak.
After all Ive been through, I still have to deal with sickening creepoz
interesting; some of them think Im a worthless drifter!
Im been treated like garbage by these people.
The profile of self I reflect to the world is false.
If you talk like a psycho, act like as drifter, dress like a bum! no one sees the real you! and thats the point!
Im not always looking or acting like a bum! Im still the hardened addict at times. No one knows anything else or could appreciate anything else!
Never give what is valuable to pigs n swim, lest they trample you under there feet and turn and tear you into pieces. Stay far away from them or they will consume you and kill you in that order; murderers do such things. Those with contempt who think they are Gods are not worth my time.
Sick people;
I am a Sadomasochist; philosophically speaking!
I like pain that kills!
I find controlling sociopaths make the best friends.
I have 2 people in me! one is the adult that does not want to be hurt, and one is the small child that wants to be beaten down and controlled.
I am getting better,
I have to remember,
I have to learn to forgive
"I forgive everyone and prey they have everything I could ever want in my life" 20 times!
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Im not sure what to do when I freeze from terror!
What happened to me was murder.
My life was destroyed and I need never forget that.
Give permission of those in authority to use you as an outsider and they will!
My history was snuffed out! as if I was never born.