I act like Im better then the girl Im around; in reality; they laugh at me and this; They think " what a creep" and laughing walk away and could careless; they find other healthier guys to associate with who don't have social problems like I do!
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What am I going to do about it! Im going to get better; Im not going to judge others! Im going to decide what I want! how I want to act and look and the outcome of such things! meaning, Im a nice guy inside of me! I have allot of good traits! and no one is going to give me anything if I dont show them!
People are not mind readers! If Im going to practice; I have to show some goods; not look or act superior, like Im doing them a favor for knowing me! I have allot of hate and defensiveness around women that is destroying any possibility of any kind of association; the idea of a relationship with these women; I doubt it; after I treated them like their inferior zoo animals because of my vanity!
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Im vain and in love with myself! Im starting to see this is not working to get women!