I am healing up from dissociative disorder; can a therapist make it faster! I dont know! They woke me up! can they do more for me! Ive done most of it myself with the outside recovery work and success based thinking projects Im involved in!
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Im slowly coming back online! Im beat up from the street up. A part of my injured personality is still deep and entangled; 50%.
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Im trying to wake up and function! The first area of interest; getting back basic goals; this would include an understanding of my goals; activities, hobbies, callings, spiritual, home based, money, relational/social, restoration of schooling.
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An important goal is to work with God on many fronts; first, better people! Im around allot of general recovery people; they are not close; they are but their not close! I know who several of the women are in my groups; I dont talk to them on a regular basis and non are my girlfriends; no do I care for them to be!
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For friends and girlfriends; I would like other places to go! I have to work with God on this! I have to get better; heal up more!
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Im still messed up, slowly climbing out of the mess by healing up! My nervous system/personality still automatically dissociates; It has a kind of ruptured dislocated feel to it! I can feel it popping out of joint, and I cant control it!
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I would like success with people; I have to work with the laws of the universe and God to bring me what I want! I have to want what will work! If Im thinking negatively, thats what Im going to attract! So, before I ask the universe to supply me people; I have to think of the perfect people I want to associate with; not the ones I dont want to associate with! and when making this statement, Im suggesting that when I call out to the universe, I am prepared with what I want! I want to know what I want! Do I know what Im wanting!
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When I dont like something; I know I want the opposite of it!
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I have allot of work to do on myself; to get my value level back up to par and out of the dregs of societies way of life! I must work with God on this as a desire!
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The big shift is working with God on these things and letting God take control and bring the people and places and things that I need. ITs about working with God and watching things show up! Its about having confidence in what I want; and this is a big journey right now!
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Security and safety are important!
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Everytime I see a women I like. I see my first love! and then I only want her! so, I have to work on this as well; I feel guilty for what I did! I didnt fallow through and I wanted to! other problems came about!