I cant describe what its like to heal from from mental illness! You feel like a has bin rapper! Like a rapper 2o years to old! Your washed up1 now what!
The mental illness game keeps you concentrated on mental illness the whole of the time! When you get better, you start opening up to the world again and the society; now what; what are my goals! I feel like Ive missed 2 3rds of my life! And now I wake up in the same place as a child!
Im not waking up with anyone I know around me! I was thrown away young! Those who did it will face God!
Now what! I can see its time to turn things around; turn the thinking from scarcity to abundance! This is a matter of focus! God is closer to abundance! This is where God wants me!
I have to keep writing my stories of who I want to be when I grow up! Keep writing them! A trial is to open up and appear that will send me to my goals! I have to keep working at things until the negative limiting beliefs and things pushed down my throat as a boy; until they are gone!
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Outside the 12 step meetings; I have no life! Im now learning how to say hi to strangers and Im interested in dating again! Dating who! I don't know anyone! I only know those in the meetings! Nothing out side the meetings! Im not sure, outside the meetings where I fit in! I will have to talk to God about this one!