Im not sure why Im not getting the denial! Ive never been around any quality women or qualifying women of interest; non! So; why should I b_tch when Ive had no luck with women; its not true that Ive had no luck with women; Ive had no luck with women I would have wanted; and I have to look at what that means. Ive been on a desert Island! Ive met the women on that desert Island; those are not the women I wanted or related with! No fault of their own; I dont speak female desert Island and never will! So; who am I and what language do I speak! Things are so confusing!
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Im doing better then I used to; but have gotten nowhere socially! Im completely confused! I guess I feel like I really dont fit into anything anywhere socially!
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Im a nice person? seems to matter not to anyone! However, Ive never met everyone!
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Ive been on the outside of the world; of society; part of nothing! I feel like a transient most of the time being part of nothing and getting no opportunities socially!
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If ive gotten opportunities socially; nothing came of it!
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Ive never met anyone I wanted to date; this is because I have not been around the quality of people I wanted to date! Who's fault is that; have I actually tried or worked at dating the kinds of people I want to date! Ive been scared of being judged in every direction!
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Ive been in the 12 step groups; gotten nowhere; nothing; I have no interest in the women of these groups; no thank you; nothing! sickening!
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Where do I fit in! Im going to have to gain some courage and step out into a whole new world where I can be judged to death!
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I feel like a person with no education; never developed anything! This causes allot of problems!
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I flunked out of all schools basically when young; trauma!
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I finished college; for what reason or what degree; I have no idea; I mean; the whole social situation; I was destroyed out of being apart of anything; I was purposely ruined and thrown away!
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Now; what do I do! where do I go!
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I relate to people that are outside city limits; one might say; but I have no money; nothing! I have nothing!
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The idea is to make a plan! Im working with the universe! I feel so un accepted by anyone in the world; anyone I would have an interest in; my real identity!
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Im over looked! Im like a bum on the street that is over looked by society! I would not have a clue where I would fit in or try to fit in! I have no idea! I really dont!
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Ive been shunned by many many people! laughed at by almost all women Ive met! These women do not have a clue who I am; Im around the wrong social group of women to date!
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I honestly dont know what to do!
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I feel like Ive been in isolation all of my life and dont know how to get out of it! Im working with the laws of attraction! the idea is; pathways unfolding to new places and people! OK; Im working on it! I dont know what it means!
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The idea is; I align with the universe and I meet someone else that is aligned with the universe; the'r brought to me! OK; Im suppose to believe this first before I see them!
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Honestly! I dont know!