Things are changing! Im getting better! Im starting to see the bigger picture of what happened to me; in my life! iTs a horrible horrible terrifying unfortunate situation; its the sorry kind of thing that would show up on a PBS special documentary on Youtube of destroyed children from psychopaths! And I am one of those people! No way of knowing any of it while it was going on! I knew I was being destroyed!
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At the age of 16, I knew what these monsters were but did not know what they were called!
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I now know all that I need to know! Im not suggesting I wont continue to release my pain and confusion! but Im not in so much pain; I am; but it does not have the effect as before because Im coming back to being a human being again! I figured out how to outsmart Dissociative disorder; this help coming from God! I still have dissociative disorder! Im not cured! I have many differences that protect the inner me from the outer world and Im constantly working on getting those defenses down.
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The main spiritual goal is now gratitude! and it will continue to be gratitude; Gratitude is a form of reality and sanity! Its a from of correct spirituality!
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My life is returning to me because I have told the universe to do so; and it is working! I am very grateful!
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Im very lucky to feel somewhat OK. Im getting better and Im grateful! Im sure with enough time I will be able to love again and have relationships and be parts of families!
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So; the ability to be positive and believe in positive is beginning! its a dominant concept at this point; gratitude is the beginning of this big change! And it is gratitude that I chase; also, it is better to be happy then right! Thank you universe for all the good things in my life I dont know about yet!