I'm 56; Ill be 57 next November 28th. Im not getting younger! it's ok; I ain't gone yet. Still; I've got a lot of work to do. I'm doing OK; really; still only, but things are changing all over the place in my favor. I'm not out n about just yet; not present just yet; I've got that part of self; that dissociative dent; inward smash bash.
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I'm doing better; I have allotted of work ahead of myself; the dissociative disorder stops me from intimacy; so, I'm working on that intimacy. its not easy; hard work.
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Its hard work; its the best way to describe my spiritual success based thinking work; hard work.
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Getting more into it; into work; into what it takes to become a great human doing and not just thinking; and not starting out at the top, but starting out where I'm at; concerning what I've earned; starting out with what I've earned; if I haven't earned anything yet; I can start out praying about it; and getting the universe involved in my life; a universe showing me what the next step is to my prosperity and safety and love and life and everything else.
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As for women; this is the natural next step of someone independent that likes themselves. The biggest problem for me is not recovery; its happening; recovery; the problem is age. Age is not a problem, but an adjustment! Most of the people on this site don't have to worry about or understand this; their 2 young. For me; As I get better; I'm getting older; However, I'm realistically seeing that things could change in my favor in a year. That's not that long. I'm suggesting that in a year I could accomplish what used to take me 1o years. So; we will see.
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The biggest area of growth is goals; getting inline with and up to speed with all my goals; the maturity of goals.
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