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Author: | OMNICELL [ Tue May 28, 2019 6:33 pm ] |
Blog Subject: | Getting close to dating |
CPTSD has and dissociative disorder have ruined any dating or relationship ability or work. However, Im getting close to dating. . Im starting to create stories of women coming up to me and asking me out for coffee; this is a significant change from my story view of before; before; I was the needy one that had to find them; find the right ones and approach them; and take the chances of rejection as I battled CPTSD at the same time and AVPD> . When I start writing solutions to a problem; in this situations; Im suggesting the women come to me; Im opening up myself to a new frontier; Im allowing and Im allowing receiving. I can feel it; I took a step closer. . My views of myself has to change. What was done to me when young; was criminal on all sides. So, Im not real thrilled about people. . I've dealt with allot of the “ wrong “ people; concerning women; so; its imperative that I find the right women; that scares me to no end because I have no control because I do not have the resources. . At some point; I have to decide Im going to figure out the kind of women I want in my life and go where they are or talk to friends who know them; and attempt to date them as is. . Im getting closer; Ive been working at it for a long time; the problem; the disappointment of dealing with yet; more wrong people. . Im looking for a specific kind of women; and I dont want anything else. . I have to get out their and look just like everyone else of where she might be; because she is hiding somewhere. I have to find her. . Im not worried about a women not being attracted to me; Im worried about a women being scared of because she thinks Im a loser; when Im not a loser; it scares me to be around abusive people again; I dont deserve it. So..... . But; if I want women in my life; I have to try to become social again...... |
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