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Mellowing; and idea of exploring the entrances to the gap...
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 1:20 am
A house and a backyard and 4 walls and a hobby
   Sun Aug 18, 2019 1:09 am
moving into know mans land (positive); and then through
   Fri Aug 16, 2019 9:41 pm
The Gap
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 8:37 pm
Teenage years
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 2:25 am
finding and painting rocks
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 5:14 pm
Expressing my feelings
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:26 pm
I know Ive never met any women to date ever....
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 11:02 am
Being alone all of my life with out women or a relationship
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:16 am
The wright brothers created plaines; Im creating my new life
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 8:41 am
A new era is starting; But Ive got problems
   Mon Aug 12, 2019 12:19 pm
Signs of the end is here; and a new era starting
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:13 pm
Trapped between 2 worlds
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 3:23 pm
Things are getting better; Im still fat; I got a problem
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 11:38 pm
Women have defeated me? and I feel deated? #1
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 6:45 am
Plans from the universe; they have cometh
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:39 pm
breaking things and coming together
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:44 am
What am I thinking about
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:16 am
That breaking point
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 8:45 pm
Needing my mothers permission
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:47 pm
And another day
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:03 pm
Im so right in the middle of the promises
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:35 pm
whats missing with music; live playing
   Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:22 pm
Women and John Denver
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 11:33 pm
Bulling
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:33 am
art images coming back and other things; taking action
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 8:35 pm
I wasn't suppose to break the my first girls heart....
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 12:47 pm
Take my mother out of the picture; what do I get.
   Fri Aug 02, 2019 11:47 pm
Where am at right now.
   Thu Aug 01, 2019 11:30 am

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Getting close to dating

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Tue May 28, 2019 6:33 pm

CPTSD has and dissociative disorder have ruined any dating or relationship ability or work. However, Im getting close to dating.
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Im starting to create stories of women coming up to me and asking me out for coffee; this is a significant change from my story view of before; before; I was the needy one that had to find them; find the right ones and approach them; and take the chances of rejection as I battled CPTSD at the same time and AVPD>
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When I start writing solutions to a problem; in this situations; Im suggesting the women come to me; Im opening up myself to a new frontier; Im allowing and Im allowing receiving. I can feel it; I took a step closer.
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My views of myself has to change. What was done to me when young; was criminal on all sides. So, Im not real thrilled about people.

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I've dealt with allot of the “ wrong “ people; concerning women; so; its imperative that I find the right women; that scares me to no end because I have no control because I do not have the resources.
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At some point; I have to decide Im going to figure out the kind of women I want in my life and go where they are or talk to friends who know them; and attempt to date them as is.
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Im getting closer; Ive been working at it for a long time; the problem; the disappointment of dealing with yet; more wrong people.
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Im looking for a specific kind of women; and I dont want anything else.
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I have to get out their and look just like everyone else of where she might be; because she is hiding somewhere. I have to find her.
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Im not worried about a women not being attracted to me; Im worried about a women being scared of because she thinks Im a loser; when Im not a loser; it scares me to be around abusive people again; I dont deserve it. So.....
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But; if I want women in my life; I have to try to become social again......

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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