As I get older; their is a fear of it all ending! and it will! but I think I have to learn a more spiritual approach to things, that I will be turning back into energy! But this scares me! I haven't lived yet! At least in relationships! Nothing! I was thrown away when young and lost all relationships and realized or found out that the local community I was around, never saw me or wanted me! I meant nothing to everyone! I didn't exist! So, I disappeared from everything and myself! Now, Im trying to come back; but its disgusting to come back to a society of filth; its in their corrupt hearts and minds; their just savages and murder's; thats all this place is! I know many people that want come here because they think the people are to cruel! I agree; thank God Im not alone!
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I still what what the cruel people have; I want my life back; I want what the corrupt people have; but without the corrupt people ! thats what I want!
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I want to be around the right decent people; the problem is, I was not accepted by them the last time; prejudice! So, I feel stuck! and have to work with the energy of the universe to find the right people or have them find me! I have to work with the universe! You are what you attract; so I have to become the type of person I want to attract!