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Father not helping

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sun Aug 23, 2015 1:24 am

So, I open up a little deeper to somethings that are surfacing! And this is good!

This is not to brutal or blood graphic; but emotionally horrible and brutal!

Anyone that knows what its like to deal with a sociopath, will understand! They take the basics of life and destroy them and you in front of you as with no remorse! In front of God with no remorse!

I was of an age, I was waiting to work with my father on things! Cars, bikes; that kind of thing!

When it came time to ask my father about work stuff! He refused and sent me off to someone else! Actually he told me to talk to someone else! Not him! The way in which he conducted himself concerning this matter was not of someone that loved me or cared about me! In fact; this person loved no one! He was using everything he could get his hands on; including the people in this family and others! He had no remorse or conscious; nothing!

You have to understand the effects this has on a boy thats already being neglected and destroyed and used!

When he left the family system; it was if he as someone else! Someone who had never been in this family before!

He was nothing but a fake, a liar and a common thief! Thats all he was! And a very good chance he was a rapist!

I had no idea this person was a bad person! I never knew! I knew when I asked him to help me develop! He basically sent me on my way! I thought; what the ###$ is going on here! He was supposed to interact as a father; at least like a father! Any father would act like a father! He did not! ######6 low life scumbag; Like a psychopath out of the local state pen; thats how he acted; a basic con!

This helped to push me deeper in to mental depravity!

I was silenced completely! who would do such a thing to a child! it was like being tortured! theirs no other way to describe it! it was like being tortured because this person is allowing you to be lost and thrown away; and is it not his job to do the opposite! Biologically, would he not want to do the opposite! he did not! I felt nothing, and saw nothing indicating a human being present! There are few things in this world worse then the comments made by a ruthless heartless soulless sociopath or psychopath! they dont just cut like a knife! what they do and say is so effensive; Im surprised more of them are not killed!

What he sent me were death words and statements! and doing this to an older child! or young starting teenager! or what ever!

nothing made any sense to me! I was being shut out of my right for a rightful developing life!

All I could to was blame God and continue to get mentally sick!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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