My emotions and memories are starting to bleed out; Im starting to wake up and remember a bit of who I am. More is needed if Im to be in a relationship; Lots more; Im on the right path; the goal is to keep it up... Keep setting goals that the universe must answer to that I become the kind of person to be in a relationship.... And their it is; Im slowly getting their. I need much much more bleeding of my emotions and thoughts and pTSD and past; all of it grounded out to a halting nothingness so I can feel free and safe and be myself again.
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Not sure how Im going to get over the loss of my house as a child; dont know; never saw that coming... Not sure how that will be processed out. I Dont know.
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The fake friends I had as a child; that is hard also; However, more people have shown up from my past and it looks like Ive got friends from that time period that were on my side; and that is good...
That is a God thing.
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I will keep thoughts of the women I want; keep them in my mind until they show up; keep visualizing as if they are already here with me... As if Ive already met them.
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How God is going to change me I dont know how... but I hope its quickly.