And looking back from the beginning of my life; being forced into numerous situations of long term exposure from neglect; Dissociative disorder developed from the beginning; it was the only way I could survive!
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Dissociative disorder is the problem with women and was the problem with women and dating from the beginning!
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One women I wanted to marry when young; I dissociated out of it! It was like another personality taking over to protect me! And I went anti social and could go no further with her! I was protecting myself from what she stood for! I was dissociating! I could not control it; myself and come back to reality!
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I dissociate! My nervous system dissociates automatically when getting to close to things or people!
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I want to care about how I feel and what I want; and learn to not dissociate in front of it! I want to stay on my path and deal with what hits and dissociative my desire out of existence through non participation!
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I have a serious dissociative disorder